Is He... Gay!? (boyxboy)

Chapter 41

*James POV*

I laid in bed with tear stains on my cheeks. I had nothing left in me to cry out. My voice is gone and my eyes are bloodshot.

All I wanted to do was let him know that I knew. I knew what he did and I wanted him to hurt as much as I did.

So why am I still hurting so bad? Why can't I get Grant out of my fucking head?

And that guy. That poor guy got beat up because he wanted to help me. I don't even know if I know his name! He was kind of cute tho...

BAM BAM

I instantly groan and look at the clock beside my bed. Who the fuck is at my door this early in the morning? I bet it's Maya. She likes to stay over when there isn't any snacks in her house. I need her here with me anyways.

I quickly get up and throw on my house shoes and head down the steps.

She knocks again.

I bet it's because she's cold.

I make it to the door and throw it open ready to scold her for coming over this late even though she does it all the time.

I wasn't expecting what I saw.

I wasn't expecting to see a bloody Grant with swollen eyes and no jacket.

He doesn't have on a jacket.

"Grant why are you here?", I say trying to stay as neutral as I can.

"I didn't know where else to go... my dad... h-he", he starts to sob into his hands.

I don't know what to do. I don't know what to say.

I don't know if I still love him. 

Instead, I pull him inside and lead him into the living room. We sit together on the couch until he stops crying.

I decide now is the time to finally ask.

"What... happened?", I say calmly not wanting to trigger another sob session.

"My dad... he found out I was gay.", he says between hiccups.

Between hiccups Grant? You torture me.

"How did he find out?", I say understanding what he could be going through.

"I told him."

"You told him?", I ask, eyebrows raised.

"Yes James! I told him I was gay! I told him I was guy because I love you! I told him I was gay so Kyle couldn't hold that against me anymore! I told him I was gay so I could FINALLY be free and be left alone to love my fucking life! I just want to live my life...", he's sobbing again. This time, I hold him in my arms. He needs to be comforted and there's no one else here but me.

Then it hits me.

Kyle

"What did you mean by that? Kyle holding it over your head?", I ask softly.

He looks up at me and I swear to god I almost lost it.

His eyes were like pools of sadness that only I could erase. And I knew that. I knew he wanted me.

Needed me.

But he hurt me... so much.

"He threatened to tell my dad I was gay if I didn't fuck him that day", he's staring at me in the eyes; glare intensifying with every second, " that's why I did it James. I did it because I didn't want to be outed. I was so fucking afraid. But now the only thing I'm afraid of... is losing you."

I stare at him wide-eyed.

"Me? You're afraid of losing me? YOU COULD HAVE TOLD ME EVERYTHING THE MINUTE IT HAPPENED!", I scream into his face. I hope I got spit on him, "You could have told me everything and I would have understood! I would have been there for you! Shit, I would have knocked Kyle the fuck out! But NO, you decide to LIE TO ME GRANT! I hate being lied to!", he flinches at my words and I can see the sorrow and the guilt rising in him.

And it hurts me... so much.

"Grant, look at me.", he looks at me once again, tears falling down his cheeks, "I love you. I love you so much and that's why I'm so hurt. You mistreated me and I don't think I could ever forget that... but I can forgive you."

"You-you forgive me?", his eyes give a hint of happiness and I smile.

"Yes Grant, I forgive you."
He kisses me with so much love that I nearly melted into his arms. Nearly? No, I did melt into his arms.

I melted into his heart and I hope I never leave.

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SO GUYS? How's it going? How's life c: ? How good is this popcorn tho huh? I think it's prettttttyyy good. 😂 I love all of you man. I actually took the time out to read every single comment and I couldn't stop laughing. 💕 u guys are the best. (Also I'm running away because what I have in store for this book will have you guys wanting to murda me.)