Is He... Gay!? (boyxboy)

Chapter 49

*Grant's POV*

I lay on Kace's couch with tears flowing down my face. I just broke up with James.

I had to. I had to let him go because I know that I would only hurt him more.

I put my hands on him. How angry would I get later on in our relationship?

I'm becoming my father and that scares the shit out of me.

I don't want our relationship to be filled with resentment and hate. We need to be friends before lovers... no matter how long it takes.

I watch Kace come into the kitchen and instantly sink into the couch. He's been trying to get me to go home and work things out with my dad. I don't why he thinks he's someone you can 'work things out with'.

I do admit that I'm tired of catching him and Kobe having sexual encounters in the kitchen... and everywhere else in the house.

"Grant you need to go home... today", he says walking into the living room and passing me a cup of coffee.

"You're kicking me out?", I ask sipping my coffee. I knew this would eventually happen. I can't keep hiding from my problems.

"Yes, I am. Only because I want Kobe to scream all night long and I doubt you want to hear that", he looks at me with a sly smile, "I mean... unless you want to join".

I almost choked on hot coffee.

"You're gross!", I respond with a laugh, "Okay. I can actually leave now if you'd like. I gotta take care of something".

I receive a shrug and I start packing my things. I plan on seeing someone I need to talk to today anyways.

I walk out the door into the chilly morning air and call an Uber. I can't walk that distance.

Once it pulls up, I quickly get into the passenger seat.

"Hey! How's it going?", the Uber driver says. I turn to him and notice that he's entirely to cheery to be an Uber driver... maybe too young as well.

"Hey... doing good. You?".

"I'm doing alright".

I respond with a nod and continue to look out the front window. I lay my head back on the seat and close my eyes.

All I can think about is James. He's on my mind all day and I can't stop it. I can't stop loving him even though what happened. I feel the butterflies in my stomach start to flutter when I think of his beautiful smile. I can't think of anyone else I want to be with besides him... it's scary. It's so fucking scary to think that I'm still madly in love with a boy you crushed me.

But who am I to judge?

"Hey man you okay?", the Uber driver says.

I look in his direction and that's when I realize I've been crying.
I wipe my eyes, "Yeah, I'm fine. Thanks".

"C'mon tell me what's going on. I might be able to help. Plus, I'm a stranger, not like you'll see me again".

I sigh, "Okay... if you're a homophobe then I'm not tipping you.", he laughs and I continue, " I'm in love with someone who cheated on me... well I don't even think it's considered cheating really because we weren't together. But we were? Anyways, I was blackmailed into having sec with another guy and when he found out, he lost it. He cheated on me purposely".

He's silent and I start to panic. What if he is a homo-

"If you want to be with him. Forgive him. Understand that what he did... he did it because you hurt him. I doubt it was in good mind. He just wanted comfort and that's where he got it. At the time, it couldn't be from you".

I nod my head, "thank you for that".

"No problem. Also, your stop is right ahead".

Once the Uber driver stops (Tom was is name), I make sure to tip him well and head up to the building. I ring the doorbell and wait.

I watch as the door slowly creeks open and a groggy little boy opens the door.

"Hey, where's your brother?", I say with a smile. He instantly brightens up noticing it's me.

"I'll go get him!", he responds and scurries off. I stand there contemplating on what I should say. Really, I have no idea what I'm doing here. I don't know why I thought this would help me at all. I guess I just have to know.

Guess I just need some closure.

I hear the door reopen and I turn back around, looking at the sleepy boy standing there with wide eyes.

How does he still look sleepy and his eyes are wide open?

"Kyle... can I talk to you?"

Filler chapter for the chaos coming. :D don't kill me?

Also, I know this is a weird thing for him to do, right? But in high school... you do A LOT of dumb shit that you regret later.