Is He... Gay!? (boyxboy)

Chapter 22

*James POV*

I lay on the bed beside a sleeping Maya. Yeah, I'm gay.

Even though I did enjoy what we just did, I didn't feel that connection I had with Grant.

Well, him in particular. I'm pretty sure I'd feel this way with any other guy.... yeahhhhh.

I mean, the girl got some good "goods" if you know what I mean. 

"James, stop looking at me you gay little bird", she says finally waking up, " I don't think I'm straight."

I look at her, confused, " wait what?"

"I don't think I'm straight. I mean, you were good and all, but it wasn't what I want you know? I feel like I needed to make sure before I actually came to the conclusion that I am into girls and only girls. Thanks for being my sexual experiment", she pats me on the shoulder and gets out of bed.

I guess that went well?

I sigh and lean back on the bed. I just lost my virginity to my best friend. If you asked me 6 months ago if I would ever even kiss Maya, I would've threw you into. pit of fire. 

Now our friendship has gotten so much stronger. We know our boundaries and what we don't and do like. We know that what we did will never affect us. 

"MAYAAA", I get up running towards her room door. 

She comes out the bathroom with a toothbrush in her mouth looking at me like I've lost my mind. 

"Why are you brushing your teeth right now?", I ask giving her a skeptical look. 

"To brush out the taste of your cu-"

"SHUT UP YOU DIDN'T EVEN DO THAT!", I yell, putting my hands over my ears. 

I don't think I could look at Maya the same if she- *shudders*. 

I go back inside the room and wait until she's finished.

She comes in wrapped in her robe and sits on the bed beside me. 

"You know you have to tell everyone you're gay right? I need to find a girl friend now that I know what I like.", She says looking at her nails. 

"Fine, fine. I'll do it next time I see them all.", I respond throwing my hands up. 

"Good because I really need some puss-"

"OKAY MAYA GOOD GOD!", she's going to take all the innocence I had left. 

"I love you James.", she says, leaning back on the bed.

"I love you too.", I lay back beside her and we both have lopsided grins on our face. 

*Two Weeks Later*

I walk out of the movie theaters without anyone with me. I have my hood covering my face and head towards the car (which is my moms that I borrow from time to time even though she knows I don't have my license).

I hop in and start the car and place my head on the steering wheel. I can do this, I can do this. 

I know I can do this. 

I pull out of the parking lot and head towards the house. The weather is getting bad since it's late April. 

I turn the windshield wipers on and head home, making sure to turn on my bright lights. 

I'm listening to Sam Smith; the weather has gotten a lot worse and I can barely see the road. 

I sigh and put my head back on the head rest. 

I slow down when I see a red light and stop. God, I just want to get home. I can't stand driving in this type of weather; everything is so dark and gloomy. 

The light turns green and I start to go when a car speeds past me and I slam on breaks. 

"Fucking idiot!", I slam my hand on the steering wheel and continue to drive. 

I keep driving, making sure to drive at a steady speed. 

I look down beside me when my phone vibrates and see that it's a text form my cousin letting me know that I left a few things at his house. I guess I'll have to go back another day and pick everything up. 

SKRTTT

I look up and see headlights. 

Then, the jolt from he car hitting mine sent my head deeply back into he head rest. 

Am I going to die?

I feel the car moving but I don't feel any pain. I don't feel when the car flips over and crashes to a tree. 

I'm falling. I'm falling into the brightest light I've ever seen. It looks so peace, but... I'm afraid. I don't know what's beyond this light and I'm scared to see.

I desperately try to grab onto anything but I'm falling through blackness. There's nothing around me that can save me.

I'm sorry.