truly, teddy ✔️ [unedited]

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dear ivo,

i messed up. those were the words filling my brain the past four days. i don't know, ivo, i just felt this weight on my heart, like i wasn't meant to be here. it wasn't enjoyable.

i've taken to checking facebook weekly. i don't know why i want to, i mean, whenever i check, i always get more and more comments about how ugly i am or how i should kill myself. i guess i want to see if anyone besides ty cares about me.

my family does. grandma on my dad's side messaged me quite often. aunts and uncles checked up on me, cousins said that they want to get together, but nothing of my {so called} friends.

i checked genny's page and she had a whole bunch of pictures with a end-of-the-year bbq at her house. everyone in the tenth grade classes, english and french, were invited. everyone expect me.

and that fact just made me feel like a failure. i was back to being one of those kids with only one friend, and even then i wasn't invited to ty's house for our annual video game marathon we had as a celebration for another school year finished. {i checked his page too and he had been with daisy the whole time}

but not the whole summer was bad. dad came home on canada day. he said he was just packing up and wouldn't be going back home but i still got to see him and to me, that meant more to me than the world.

truly,

teddy

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happy canada day, humans!

i broke my ipod two days ago and then got a new one yesterday [canada day]. i tried uploading this but i my wifi wouldn't work :(

vommare

-august