truly, teddy ✔️ [unedited]

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dear ivo,

i can't take it anymore. i've blindfolded myself so i won't see ray's smiling face and lifeless eyes. and i like the darkness. i welcome it because now i won't see the nurses' pitying faces. [i hate pity]

ty's writing this for me because of the blindfold. it feels weird saying the things out loud that should be kept quiet but, what can you do?

bell kept coming to my room and saying, "i told you so."

i hate his existence.

all throughout the night last night, i heard ray's laughter. it wasn't like anything i've ever heard before. it was horrible, ivo. i was scared and shaking and screaming and no one would come to hold and comfort me. no one.

i asked on facebook if you could come visit me. you never answered.

i really want to see you.

i need to hear your voice.

i need to feel your hand in mine.

i just really need you. and although ty has been there for me every step of the way, comforting me and piecing me back together, you are the only one who could fully fix me.

truly,
teddy

-

hey hey hey c;

so uh i published a new story called albatross. it's coming out when star gazing is done. (yes. star gazing is almost finished *sob*)

well, please check it out and tell me what you think of it ;p

vommare

-august