truly, teddy ✔️ [unedited]

ivo's pov

get in car. turn on car. drive. drive. drive.

my mind wouldn't function properly. cars and trees whip past but my brain didn't take in that information. the only thing going through it is to get to teddy.

get to teddy.

i barely notice i had stopped in the middle of the road. i stare blankly ahead while the cars behind me honk for me to keep going. my mind tells my foot to press on the gas but it doesn't listen. it just hovers over the pedal, frozen.

teddy is in a mental hospital. what am i doing anyways? do i think that if i just show up, she'd get better and want to come back to school? no. that's stupid. reality isn't like that.

"come on, foot," i say. "push on that gas."

but it still doesn't listen. after a few moments, a person knocks on my window. slowly, i move my finger and press on the button that makes the window go down. it rolls down, reviling a girl.

"ivo, what are you doing?" daisy, ty's girlfriend asks me.

"i don't know. i really don't know."

she smiles. "it's okay. just can you keep driving? you're holding up a whole bunch of people."

i shake my head. "i'm trying. i really am. but i can't move. my foot won't listen to me." tears start streaming down my face. this is so weird. i've cried more about teddy today than my whole life.

daisy says, "here. i'll drive you to where you need to go." she opens the driver's door but i still don't move.

"come on, legs. move." but they still don't move. the tears start flowing faster. "i can't move, daisy. my mind is staying to get up but my legs won't work."

she sighs. "okay come on. i'll carry you."

daisy sticks her arms under my legs and lifts me up from the driver's seat. i have to say, she is strong. she sets me down at the passenger side and opens the door for me. i still can't move so she picks me up again and set me down in the seat. buckling up my seatbelt, she nods.

"good." then she goes around the car and gets in the driver's seat. turning on the car again, she says, "so where to?"

"teddy," i whispers. "cherry hills."

"oh. must be scary, being mental and all. hey are you okay?"

"no."

she reaches over and rubes my back. "it's going to be okay in the end. everyone will be happy."

"but i won't be happy without teddy."

it's true. i was never truly happy without her. when we stopped being best friends and carine came into the picture, it wasn't good. i thought i was happy without her; i mean i had another girl in my life. but it was the wrong girl. and i just realized that when teddy didn't come in for the first day of school.

that was when i broke up with carine.

and slowly, the heart that i thought was full - which was really barely there - started to piece itself together. but the thing is, the last piece of my heart is with teddy.

"well then. let's get you to teddy then, shall we?" daisy starts driving and soon we're a few minutes away from the mental hospital teddy is staying at. i star blankly ahead, not allowing myself to think about all the things that could go wrong. not allowing myself to even feel anything.

cold. that's what i feel, knowing i'm the cause of her destruction.

daisy parks the car and says, "here we are."