truly, teddy ✔️ [unedited]

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dear ivo,

i'm writing this in the car so sorry if the writing's messy. i never really had neat writing anyways and my teachers would always have to ask me what i wrote.

when - no if - i ever give these to you, i really hope you can read them.

mum found my knives yesterday. i had two, one was under pillow and the other just sitting on my dresser. {i should have been more careful with where i hid them}

we drove to the hospital today. i tried to tell mum that i didn't cut, i didn't put the blades to my skin but she wouldn't listen. she was obsessed with getting me to the hospital and check me out.

doc bell was really nice. he asked me the questions about cutting and stuff while mum hyperventilated in the corner. bell made two other doctors come and get mum because she wouldn't go herself.

bell said that i had to stay the night in the hospital. he told mum to go get my stuff like pillows and clothes. i insisted that i come with her.

we're arriving at my house now. i'm scared, ivo. i don't want to stay in the hospital without mum. no one is allowed to stay with me. and i'm afraid that if they leave me alone with my demons and the boy in black, i won't be able to resist them any longer.

truly,

teddy