Passover love

Chapter 22

           

Chapter 22

I feel like jeopardizing my self was such a dissatisfaction. I couldn't possibly be alive. Having to think that I could stretch my arms to the air freely, jump across the river and swam positively gives me the strength to put a smile.

My eyes feel a sudden heat. Like, I know I'm closing my eyes but then I knew when the moment I open it, all the heat from the white light glimmer in my eyes. How can I feel? Is my body not dead yet? I thought while contemplating things that could possibly happen.

Suddenly I feel so anxious. The thought of me to be alive is a nightmare. Why am I even closing my eyes? I feel like I don't know what happened to me. I only felt a feeling. Why didn't remember what happened?

Think....M—

I forgot my name!

This is bad. This is bad! I force to think thoroughly on what happen yesterday and the day before, but I couldn't even recall it! I then, feel sweat running through my head and my body shaking furiously.

I heard different kind of noise in my left and right ear. In my right ear, I only hear a sound of a machine. The sound of it sounds particularly familiar. At the left, I hear murmurs, shouts and sounds of people talking. The only thing I'm sure is that they're panicking.

An hour passed, I'm still closing my eyes. My body tells me to do it otherwise I feel like I'm going to suffer. It feels like my eyes are temporarily close not until someone will open it.

I feel stable now. Unlike earlier, I think I panic a lot and feel so miserable. The pain in my head is still not recovering until now. It remains and each minute, it'll affect me so much.

"O, Isuse Khriste! Skŭpa moya dŭshterya!" I heard someone shout while whimpering so loud. I observed my surroundings, but I did not hear anything until I hear one by one I only hear sobs.

The place is full of crying and snivel that I could probably cry too by the sadness that they envelope in this place atmosphere. Why I am closing my eyes? Why do I feel like my whole body is numb? I thought while thinking the things that I suddenly did before I become like this.

I heard footsteps and a door open and close again. And there was it, the whole place is deafening with pure silence. Only at my right where I heard machine sounds.

I thought the place will stay silent as it was earlier. But then, I heard footsteps at my side. I suddenly feel a warm hand caressing my face. I don't know why but the touch of the hand made me teary eyed. I know the person beside me is crying. His/her tears are flowing in my cheeks as I feel the warmness in it.

Why do it feel like they're mourning? By the sound of their sobs earlier, as if it was someone died, or someone was saved. The electricity of the hand when it caressed my face made me remember what happen. It was as if it's touch can already make me alive.