fake rose // chaelisa

what's happening? (21)

all mistakes are mine.

when austin dropped me at my apartment i immediately got inside my room and locked myself in.

the satisfaction that i felt earlier because the interview went really smoothly is now completely gone. i'm suddenly sad and the jealousy sitting on top of my chest is very uncomfortable, i want it off.

i try to remind myself that's it his job, he's supposed to pose with chaeyoung in front of a camera. but it's not his job to look at chae like that. his eyes are pretty much dripping honey. i can't shake the thought of them talking right now, him complementing chae, him telling her she's beautiful-

stop.

i should stop.

thinking about him with chaeyoung is just making me want to ruin his beautiful face more.

this is stupid! why do i hate him so much? i don't even know him. i haven't even seen him in person. what if he's a nice guy? what if he donates to charity? then that's worse! because the possibility of chaeyoung liking him wouldn't be such a blur.

feeling absolutely frustrated and a little bit hopeless, i decided that i'd just watch something on netflix and wait for chae to call or text me. i don't want to think about that model right now. being mad at him is pointless, i don't even know his name, he might be married or is in a very relationship right now. who knows?

when the first episode started, i was instantly engrossed. i kept my phone on my lap just in case chaeyoung finally decided to call or just do something. she told me to wait for two days, but it's been three days. i just need to talk to her, i need to tell her that i'm coming back to korea tomorrow. but obviously, i can't call her right now. i don't want to risk anything.

i was a few episodes in the series when my phone suddenly rings. i was about to ignore it because i was so intrigued by the plot of the series, but then i remembered that it might be chaeyoung that was calling. and i was absolutely right. i quickly paused the tv and swiped my phone to answer the call.

"chaeng?"

"hi, dork," her voice was very soft and gentle.

"are you not busy anymore?"

"yep," she answered quickly.

i watch a lot of her on youtube. she mostly speaks in korean, but when she does speak in english, it's literally the hottest thing ever. i know that we speak in english because obviously, i don't understand korean but her aussie accents still gets me every time. it's so hot.

"i missed you," i said.

"i missed you more," she replied. "gosh, i was dying to call you."

"then why didn't you? you told me to wait for two days, but i ended up waiting for three days," i was out of no where very annoyed and frustrated. "you were with the dude, weren't you?"

i didn't know why i was suddenly so upset. just a few seconds ago, i was so happy and excited that chaeyoung was finally calling me and now i just feel really frustrated and a little bit jealous.

correction, very jealous.

"dude? who? i don't know what you're talking about," she sounded very confused. her brows are probably knitted right now.

"come on, babe. don't play dumb," i replied, my voice not so soft and low anymore. it had a slight harshness to it.

"jerard? the male model?"

i rolled my eyes. "i don't know his name. i didn't bother."

"yah, lalisa, why are you so upset? it was just a picture!"