fake rose // chaelisa

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all mistakes are mine.

when i awoke from my slumber, i was greeted with the most pleasant hangover ever. pleasant in way that my head didn't hurt as bad. pleasant in a way that it was very easy for me to get on both my feet. when i glanced at my wrist watch, i couldn't help but groan out loud.

"who wakes up at 9AM?" i muttered, annoyed.

oh, right. i do.

i stepped inside my bathroom and took a long, hot shower. i let the soft droplets of water soothe my slightly aching muscles. driving for hours suck.

while i was letting my skin soak up all the water, i remembered something. veronica invited me on a friendly date. i'm not sure where we're going because she wouldn't tell me. apparently, it's a surprise. a normal person would be excited, but i'm a type of girl who hates surprises and the unexpected, so i'm not really looking forward to whatever veronica has in mind.

it was when all my ten fingers were all wrinkled up did i step out the shower. i was surprised (not really) to see my bathroom super fogged up. i forgot to completely slide the door shut. so when i looked at the mirror, i couldn't see myself. instead of removing the blur that stops me from perceiving myself in the mirror; i find myself doodling chaeyoung's name.

i haven't stop thinking about her since yesterday. when i think of her, guilt crawls inside of my bones. when i think of her, i try so fucking hard to convince myself that she's still the girl i prepared myself to spend the rest of my life with. when i think of all our promises, my heart breaks.

is this the end? i'd never thought that this is how my love for chae would end. for a matter of fact, i never thought that my love for her would even end or chafe in the slightest. i feel pathetic and hopeless because i don't know what to do - i don't know what i HAVE to do to make everything and everyone feel better.

i reluctantly stepped outside the bathroom and walked straight into my bedroom. i pulled an off-shoulder blouse and shorts, and decided that's what i'm going to wear today. i straightened my hair and put on some light make-up, and when i was ready, i texted veronica asking her if she's ready too.

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lisa:
yow, u ready?

veronica:
hold on. give me 5 more minutes. i need to do my make-up

lisa:
aight

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i placed down my phone and sighed deeply. you know who always pops inside my mind when someone says "give me 5 more minutes."?

chaeyoung.

she always says that whenever we go on a date or go outside. and to be honest, i hate her for that. i hate how 5 minutes always turns into 30, sometimes even an hour. i hate how long she takes just to get ready. but most of all, i hate that she feels the need to put on make-up and impress me knowing that she's already beautiful, and whatever she does something, it always makes my knees go incredibly weak.

i was about to dose off, but the familiar buzz of my phone snapped me out of my trance. i hastily grabbed it (slightly hoping that it was chae that texted) so when i saw that it was only veronica who did, i felt a tinge of disappointment rise up in my chest.

she told me that she's ready and i can pick her up now.

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"hi!" veronica greeted me with a bearhug.