Dreamer | Jung Hoseok [Discontinued]

Three

I have never seen anyone actually have a panic attack before, neither have I felt it myself but, I think I am right now.

My face is red, my eyes are swollen. I am still breathing heavily as my chest is going up and dropping down. My nose is blocked and I sniffle trying to breathe in as much as air as possible. And even though I wiped the tears from my face and tried to control myself from crying again, I may still have tear stains on my flushed face. Plus, I haven't even had a chance to wash myself after a sweat-filled dance practice at school.

Worst of all, Hoseok is right infront of me, laughing at me for walking right into a streetlight. I'm not going to lie, I would laugh at myself for being so clumsy too.

"Hoseok." I said.

"I had a feeling it was you from the back." He said which cleared up my misunderstanding of him following me. He showed me a small plastic bag in his hands."I was just on my way home from the convenience store." 

I tried not making eye contact with him and hide my face without being noticed. That didn't last long.

He moved down to meet my eyes with a worried expression. His stare alone made it feel like my stomachs for doing flips and my heart speed just tripled. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing at all." I said, trying to get out of this situation.

"No way is it nothing. You were crying weren't you?" 

Oh God, please have mercy on my soul.  

I didn't say anything and simply looked down at my feet, locking my hands together behind my back.

What have I gotten myself into? 

He sighed before standing up straight as we spent the next moment in silence. I assumed he was thinking of what to do next while I was thinking of how to get out of this.

"You don't have to tell me what happened if you don't want to." He smiled, sadly. "But at least let me cheer you up, yeah?"

"H-huh?"  He gently took my hand and pulled me with him before I could even process what he just said.

He let go of my hand as soon as he noticed I was following him. He didn't look back but I could still sense the wide smile on his face making me wonder where he is taking me that is so exciting. 

"You know I hate watching a dear friend so gloomy." He broke the silence.

You always want to cheer people up, that's what I appreciate most about you was what I wanted to say, but it was hard building up the courage to do so since one small mistake can ruin everything.

Even though its the middle of June, the evenings are pretty cold which caused my nose-block to grow even more and I couldn't even breathe through my mouth as it would make my throat sore and I'd cough. I was afraid of Hoseok getting annoyed by my constant sniffling.

"We're here," He said as I halted my steps. "Ta da!~" He opened his arms wide, showing me were we have arrived.

I find myself staring at the number of white, dusty seats infront of a small but wide stage. White columns on each of the four sides, broken lights on top and narrator stand at the front corner. 

I would have never guessed that he would bring me here. Why would he?

"You must be wondering why I brought you here."

"You read my mind." I said, my voice still a bit choked up.

"This is where I come I had a bad day, or I feel like crying. Sure, this place is abandoned but that means its all mine!" He said cheerfully. I chuckled softly before walking through all the chairs and towards the stage, Hoseok following.

He skips past me and climbs up the stage but I, being the civilized person that I am, use the stairs at the sides as Hoseok taps his foot impatiently and watching me take the long way up.

I try to get rid of the tear stains once more by rubbing the areas but I don't even know if their gone. Probably not.

Hoseok takes out his phone from his pocket and starts tapping on it. I, on the other hand, look out from the stage and see the tall trees, bushes and a fencing at the side of this area. It looked really aesthetic and peaceful making me wonder why people abandoned it in the first place.

I did realize it got way darker on our way here, the stars were starting to twinkle one by one.

Suddenly, I hear a strong, up-beat sound. I look back to find Hoseok placing his phone on the narrator stand before skipping over to me. "You know what I do to forget everything negative?" He asks. "I dance." 

I watch him dancing to each beat perfectly like a professional. 

Reminded me that he won almost five trophies trophies in dance outside of Gwangju, and also was asked to perform on stages. He was got elected as the dance club's captain by 98% of votes. I always admired his talent and abilities, I wanted to be just like him. The fact that he is the dance club's captain isn't the only reason I joined the dance club, it's also because I'm very attracted to the art itself.

I go for after school practice and rehearsal telling my parents that I go to Dahees house. They don't support me doing dance. They don't support me doing anything I love. All they want me to do is become Bill Gates right after graduation. They don't have the money, they want mine.

"Come on." I was snapped back to reality by Hoseok soft voice, his hands extended out towards me in a welcoming way.

"I'm not in the mood." I reject.

"You'll forget everything once you find yourself having fun." He said, making wonder what that meant.

"Is that IU?" I chuckled once I recognized the song properly. "I know that song really well."

"What? I got my own taste in music." Hoseok shrugged.

I start tapping my feet to match each beat as close as I could. Before I knew it, I started dancing along with Hoseok, every step of ours in sync but it felt like we weren't paying attention to how we dance, we just are.

I forgot everything negative, just like he said I would.