Growing Pains

Entry #23

Annyeonghaseyo!!! I'm back!! Pero nangangapa pa ako ulit sa story na ito, please bear with me. :)

Adrienne

"Happy Anniversary Patchi" I stood still for a moment, is this real? or just a product of my imagination? Ganun ba ako kabaliw kay Vaughn para lang marinig ko ang boses niya na para bang andito sya?

I closed my eyes, and smiled; yes, anniversary namin dapat ngayon, may niready ako na surprise para sa kanya. He was looking so hard for this certain limited edition na shoes from Adidas. I asked Anya for some help. Then I was able to get a pair. Yun nga actually ang centerpiece sa mini lounge sa kwarto ko. I imagined him being surprised, then hugging me, thanking me for the gift. But in reality, this is my way of thanking him, for bearing with my existence and being a consistent pain in the ass.  

I then opened my eyes, I listened to the soft music playing, it was Fix you by Coldplay. Because he was able to fix me, so good, that he hurt himself with broken pieces of my being. Paano ko to kakayanin? Paano ko to gagawin mag isa? Di ko to kaya. I broke down, near my bed, hugging myself so hard. I panicked when I heard footsteps towards my bedroom door. Gosh, I look like  a mess. Why do I look like I cried for days? 

*knock, knock, knock*

"Adi, are you okay? Vaughn left already."

I clutched on my vanity table for support. Yes he left already. I know alright.

"I'm okay. Just call me when dinner's ready."

"You don't sound okay to me." 

"Just go, Johann."

"For what its worth, i'm sorry"

I am too. But it has all been said and done. I was heading towards my bed, to somehow rest, because my emotions are consuming all my strength. I faced my bedside table, there's my Vaughn, it was a picture of him, while handling his patient, he was all smiles & had that proud look on his face because he was able to teach the patient how to walk again, amidst being differently-abled. You deserve more dear one, I hugged the frame while my sleepy state is slowly sinking in. 

I woke up to the sound of loud thuds on my door, I searched for my phone, hmm, it's already 10:00 PM, no calls, no messages whatsoever. It was just hours of not hearing from him and I feel like I might break. Pero there's something weird, Vaughn never leaves whenever we have an argument. Even if I push him to go, he  won't. But this time he did leave me, that fast. It just doesn't feel right. 

"Adrienne! Ano ba?! Open your door!" that's Anya

"This is all my fault." that's my brother "Manang pakikuha naman po yung mga spare keys."

"Ano nanaman bang ginawa mo sa kapatid mo hijo?" 

"E manang..." my brother shushed his words and somehow I was curious, so I wore my glasses and started heading towards the door. Lahat ng naririnig ko puro bulungan. Then I opened the door. There was silence.

My brother was leaning on my door frame and Anya was smiling. I'm confused. "Why are you both smiling? Do you find my situation funny?" bakit ganito sila bigla? Anya just made 3 snaps with her fingers then there was Vaughn, on the stairs, smiling like he just saw a clown.