5SOS Preferences and Imagines

Luke Doesn't Want To Be A Daddy

  "I'M ONLY 18 YEARS OLD, I'M IN A BAND THAT'S TAKING OFF BRILLIANTLY. I REALLY DONT' HAVE THE TIME TO BE A FATHER, (YN)." LUKE TOLD YOU ABRUPTLY ON A VISIT TO YOUR HOME THE NIGHT BEFORE HE LEFT FOR TOUR.
"SO, YOU'RE JUST GOING TO LEAVE ME ALONE TO RAISE THIS BABY." YOU ASK, TEARS IN YOUR EYES, WAITING FOR LUKE TO TURN AROUND SAYING HE WAS SORRY AND HE DIDN'T MEAN IT, BUT HE WASN'T TURNING. "I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN DO THIS BY MYSELF, LUKE! I NEED HELP!"
LUKE FINALLY TURNED, BUT HE DIDN'T SAY THE WORDS YOU WANTED HIM TO. "WELL, I'M SORRY. I HOPE YOU FIND HELP FROM SOMEONE OR SOMETHING, IT'S JUST NOT GOING TO BE FROM ME. SORRY, (YN)." AND THEN HE WAS OUT THE DOOR.
YOU FELL ONTO THE FLOOR IN FRONT OF THE DOOR IN A PUDDLE OF TEARS. YOU COULDN'T BELIEVE THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE HAD JUST WALKED OUT THAT DOOR, LEAVING YOU ALONE TO FEND FOR A BABY THAT YOU WEREN'T PREPARED FOR. HE THOUGHT THAT BECAUSE HE WAS 18 HE COULDN'T HANDLE IT? YOU WERE JUST A YEAR OLDER, YOU WERE PRETTY MUCH IN THE SAME BOAT, NEITHER OF YOU WERE PREPARED, YOU JUST HAD THE MOTIVE TO STAY IN YOUR BABY'S LIFE AND LET THEM KNOW THAT THEY WERE LOVED BY SOMEBODY.
*FEW MONTHS LATER*
"HE'S BACK IN TOWN, (YN)." YOUR FRIEND, MELODY, TOLD YOU AND YOU SHRUGGED YOUR SHOULDER.
"DO YOU THINK I CARE? HE LEFT ME WHEN I NEEDED HIM THE MOST AND NOW LOGAN DOESN'T HAVE A FATHER AND I'M STRUGGLING TO DO THIS ON MY OWN EVEN WITH LOGAN ONLY BEING THREE DAYS OLD." YOU BEGAN TO SOB AND YOUR FRIEND HELD YOU CLOSE, COMFORTING YOU.
"YOU ARE DOING SO AMAZING WITH HIM THOUGH, (YN). HE'S SUCH AN INCREDIBLE BABY."
"YEAH BUT I WANT HIM TO HAVE HIS DADDY IN HIS LIFE. HE LOOKS JUST LIKE LUKE, EVERYTIME I LOOK AT HIM I THINK OF LUKE AND I GO CRAZY BECAUSE I KNOW LUKE'S AVOIDING ME AT ALL COSTS WHEN I JUST REALLY WANT HIM HERE WITH ME. TO RAISE OUR BABY, OUR SON, TOGETHER, BUT THAT'S NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN AND I THINK I'M LOSING MY MIND."
LOGAN BEGAN TO CRY AND YOU GOT UP TO FEED HIM, DROPPING THE LITTLE CLOTHES YOU WERE FOLDING WHEREVER THEY FELL. AS YOU FED LOGAN, THE DOOR RANG.
MELODY ANSWERED IT AND NEARLY HAD A HEART ATTACK AS SHE DID SO. "WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING HERE HEMMINGS?"
"I WAS TOLD THAT (YN) HAD THE BABY. A BOY I THINK I HEARD." YOUR FRIEND WAS ABOUT TO SLAM THE DOOR IN LUKE'S FACE AS LOGAN LET OUT A CRY FROM THE BACK ROOM AND YOU WERE CRYING ALSO. "MELODY! CAN YOU GET ME A NEW SHIRT, LOGAN JUST THREW UP AND KIND OF PEED ON THE ONE I'M WEARING."
MELODY WAS GONNA DO AS YOU ASKED OF HER WHEN LUKE PUSHED PAST HER. "(YN)!"
YOU STOPPED WHAT YOU WERE DOING, TEARS STREAMING DOWN YOUR FACE, BABY LOGAN IN YOUR ARMS WHEN LUKE APPEARED IN THE DOORWAY. YOU DEFINITELY WERE NOT DRESSED TO IMPRESS, YOU WERE DRESSED LIKE A FRANTIC SCARED NEW MOM STILL LEARNING WHAT TO DO AND HOW TO DO IT.
"(YN)."
YOU GLARED AT HIM EVEN AS YOU SAW HIM FOCUS IN ON THE BABY IN YOUR ARMS. "I DONT' WANT YOU HERE, YOU TOLD ME YOU DIDN'T WANT TO BE HERE, YET HERE YOU ARE. WHY?"
"I HEARD YOU HAD THE BABY AND WELL WHEN I HEARD THAT YOU HAD HIM, I JUST HAD TO COME AND SEE HIM."
"DID YOU NEED PROOF THAT I WASN'T LYING TO YOU?" YOU PLACED LOGAN DOWN AS MELODY CAME IN WITH A NEW SHIRT FOR YOU.
"NEED ME TO STAY?" SHE GLARED AT LUKE AND YOU SHOOK YOUR HEAD. "NO, WE'RE OKAY.
"WANT ME TO TAKE LOGAN?"
"NO."
"OKAY." SHE THEN LEFT LEAVING YOU AND LUKE ALONE. CHANGING INTO YOUR CLEAN SHIRT YOU WATCHED AS LUKE FOLLOWED YUR EVERY MOVE BUT ALSO GIVING BABY LOGAN A GLANCE. HE DIDN'T ASK PERMISSION WHEN HE WALKED OVER TO LOGAN'S CRIB. HE DIDN'T ASK IF HE COULD HOLD HIM WHEN HE REACHED DOWN AND CAREFULLY PULLED HIM UP AND INTO HIS ARMS.
"HE'S TINY."
"HE WAS BORN EARLY."
"YOU NAMED HIM LOGAN?"
NODDING YOU SIGHED, SITTING DOWN IN THE ROCKING CHAIR THAT LUKE'S MOTHER HAD SENT YOU.
"YEAH, YOUR MOM SUGGESTED IT AND I LIKED IT.
LUKE SAT DOWN ON THE FLOOR IN FRONT OF YOU. "YOU TALKED TO MY MOTHER?"
"YEAH, I NEEDED A SUPPORT AND SHE WAS ONE OF MY MAIN ONES. SHE EVEN CONVINCED ME TO GIVE LOGAN YOUR LAST NAME SO NOW HIS FULL NAME IS LOGAN MICHAEL HEMMINGS."
"MICHAEL?" HE ASKED WITH A LAUGH AND YOU SURPRISINGLY JOINED IN. "YEAH IT JUST SEEMED TO FIT IN WITH THE NAME AND HIM."
"HE LOOKS LIKE ME."
"YEAH, MADE ME MISS YOU MORE. NOW I HAVE TO ASK, YOUR MOTHER TOLD YOU ABOUT HIM DIDN'T SHE?"
LUKE NODDED. "YEAH, I LEFT TOUR TO COME AND SEE HIM AND TO APOLOGIZE TO YOU EVEN THOUGH YOU STILL HATE ME AND PROBABLY FOREVER WILL."
"NO, NOT FOREVER. YOU GAVE ME LOGAN, I CAN'T BE MAD AT YOU FOR THAT. I CAN STILL BE MAD ABOUT YOU FOR LEAVING ME ALONE, BUT I GUESS OVER TIME THAT'LL GO AWAY. BUT ONLY IF YOU STAY AND HELP ME WITH LOGAN, I REALLY DON'T THINK I CAN KEEP ON DOING THIS BY MYSELF LUKE."
LUKE KEPT ONE ARM HOLDING LOGAN AND PUT A HAND ON YOUR KNEECAP. "MY MOTHER GAVE ME THE WORST LECTURE OF MY LIFE, VERY HUMILIATING BUT IT MADE ME REALIZE HOW MUCH OF A STUPID ASS I WAS BY LEAVING YOU. I DO LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU AND I REALLY THINK I LOVE THIS LITTLE GUY. IT'LL BE FOREVER AND I'M WILLING TO WAIT FOR YOU, BUT I'M HERE FOR NOW, IF YOU'LL HAVE ME."
"HOW COMFORTABLE ARE YOU SLEEPING IN YOUR CAR?" YOU SMIRKED AT HIM.