My Epitome Of Love

part 26

Days turned into weeks as the month of June came rushing by.

Our senior prom is being held this Saturday on the first week of June and then on the third week of June will be our graduation. Jordan is this year's valedictorian. He deserves it. I'm so proud of him.

"Jessica Lawrence, would you be my date to the 'New bonds and friendship' homecoming party ?" Joshua asks me with a hint a pink painting his define cheeks and nervousness in his voice as we both lay on his bed.

Joshua Reed is asking me to be his date to Austin's themed prom. I can't believe it. It feels like a dream .

"I'll be honored." I say with admiration and happiness as I stroke my fingers along his bare chest.

I admire him for the man he is today, a brave, strong and kind-hearted person. I'm happy because of how far we've reached. From being a jerk to being my friend.

"I got something to confess." I announce as I stopped running my fingers across his chest.

" I used up all of your shampoo and took the last remaining bottle home. It's not my fault it smells so good. I like it" I quickly say defending myself.

Joshua gives me one of his signature mischievous smirk and in a flash second he rolls on top of me, hovering me.

"Someone's been a bad girl. That was my favorite shampoo. Now I'll just have to punish you." He says  trailing soft kisses up my collarbone.

Damn does he has a magical touch. With each kiss making my skin burn with excitement.

Knowing that he has a Daddy kink and a thing for role play, I pull
his head forward so that his lips are just mere centimeters from  my lips I whisper "Fuck me Daddy."

With a devious smirk, he captures my lips with his in a rough demanding kiss that sent fire to my very core.

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"Girl I'm telling you. He's so good, he rocks my world." Jas says sitting in my room telling me about her and Alex's sex life.

"Good for you. Is it true what they say about huge hands and big feet ?" I curiously ask chucking a popcorn at her. Because Alex has huge hands, long fingers and big feet.

"Honey. It's all true. You won't believe the magic that he does with those huge hands and long fingers of his." She says sending a smirk my way.

Giving her a thumbs up, I turn my attention to Golden Girls on the television.

"What's the deal with you and Joshua anyway ?" Jas asks me with a curious look on her face.

She knows that we're fuck buddies. I've told her because I didn't want to keep any secrets from her. I trust her. Plus I love that she doesn't judge me for my decision.

"Just don't get hurt okay. You're playing with two hearts. Your's and Joshua's." Jas says with a worried look. "There's a thin line with being friends with benefits and lovers. "

"I'm careful Jas. I know what I'm doing." I reply to her.

But the question is do I ?

I'm only eighteen years old. I have no idea what I'm doing. All I know is that I have a stupid void in my heart that prevents me from loving anyone else again. The only way to make the pain go away is through sex, alcohol and my studies.

I can't love again.

I can't move on because I still don't know where I stand.

All I know is that Luke left me.

He abandoned me that night.

But for what ?

The only way to probably move on is to get answers from him. To find out why he did what he did. The only problem in that is that I don't know where he is or where he went.

He doesn't have any social media accounts nor is his cell phone number working.

"I don't know Jas. I truly don't." I whisper as a tear slips from my eyelids. Hearing me she reaches by my side in a split second.

Hugginf me, she says " I know what you've been through. But I don't know your pain. I could only imagine it. You're strong, brave and smart and I'm proud of you Jessie. "

Crying harder at her words, I feel as if a dam just broke inside of me.

I haven't cried like this since Luke left me.

Singing me the theme song from 'Friends' because she knows it'll make me feel better. Listening to her melodic voice, my crying eases.

"I love you Jess. Always and forever." She says kissing me on my forehead.

"Love you too Jas. Always and forever." 

We got that saying 'Always and forever' from The Originals. We're huge fans of that tv show and have been saying it to each other ever since.

I'm truly blessed to have such a great and wonderful person like Jasmine as my best friend in my life. Not only she is my best friend, she's also my sister.