My Epitome Of Love

part 37

"I look hott" I te myself as I stare at my reflection in the mirror.

I hear my phone 'Beep' distracting me from looking at my sexy form.

Unknown number: I'm downstairs.

Me: I'll be down in a minute.

Looking at the clock in my bedroom, it said 6:59. Joshua is one minute early.

Locking up my apartment, I head to the lobby where I see Joshua patiently waiting for me, looking deviously handsome in his suit.

Upon noticing me, he takes a double take, licking his pouty plumb lips watching me, my every move as I walked towards him, swaying my hips. His lips look so inviting, I forgot what they tasted like. I would love to know what he's thinking right now.

"You never seize to amaze me with your breathtaking beauty sunshine."

"You look handsome as always." I wink at him with a smirk.

Leading me to his matte black Audi r8 v10 plus, we leave to go at 'Pepolino' restaurant. It's an Italian restaurant.

"How may I help you sir ?" The usher asks us as we enter.

"Table for two please, under the name of Joshua Reed."

"Follow me." The usher leads us to a table for two.

Looking at the menu, I order Sformato Di Spinaci, Mista Verde and Spaghetti Chitarra whereas Joshua order Melanzane Grigliate, Insalata De' Medici and Spaghetti Chitarra.

"Let's get down to business, why were you avoiding me Josh ? Why didn't you answer my calls, my texts, my emails, did you even read the letter I wrote for you ?" I interrogat him for answers.

After releasing a long sigh of despair, he look up to me, his green eyes looked so vulnerable, so afraid.

"That night at Aunt Betty's, I couldn't stand the sight of you and Luke so I left. When I heard from Alex that you and Luke are back together, I felt betrayed, you were the only one who understood what it felt like to be abandoned by someone you love. I couldn't face you, I felt jealous. I was envious of Luke for having such a brave, wonderful woman in his life. I didn't answer any of your calls, text or emails because it hurt me to know how happy you are when I'm drowning in my own self pity. I tried to forget you, girls, women were throwing themselves at me, but I couldn't do it, you were the only woman who could've satisfy me, please me, make me happy."

What on heavens name do I say that that. Well Jessica Lawrence, you wanted answers, well now you got them.

Joshua Reed was jealous of Luke's and I relationship. He felt betrayed that I left because I understood his pain better that anyone else. I don't really blame him for being mad at me. I sort of understood his situation.

"I'm sorry Joshua, I'm so sorry. I didn't know.." I say trying to come up with the right words to say. I don't even know if he liked me. He said he was jealous but he didn't state if he had feelings for me.

"I don't need your empathy Jes." He barks out.

I just made it worst. How to make this situation get better. Gosh I feel so awkward.

"I needed to see you again one last time, so I went to New Haven, Ally told me where you live, so I stood in the far corner opposite of the coffee shop watching you, admiring you from afar, I wanted to tell you how I felt about you but I stopped myself from doing so when I saw how your eyes lit up when you saw Luke, how genuinely happy you were. I couldn't take that away from you. But you being you almost blew my cover when you discovered me." He confesses looking at me straight in the eyes.

That was Joshua, no wonder the stranger's back seemed so familiar. I'm such an idiot for not noticing that.

Choosing my words wisely, I asked him, "You had feelings for me ? I thought you said you don't do relationships ?"

"I don't do relationships until I met you. Something about you, your happy bubbly auora melted my dark tainted heart. I fell in love with you along the way without knowing it until it was too late."

Joshua Reed fell in love with me ? Did he just say he fell in love with me ? I can't believe my own ears.

"I guess we both discovered something we thought was impossible to exist huh, somewhere along the way, I caught feelings for you as well. I liked you." I truthfully say.

It's true because what Joshua and I shared wasn't just a sexual connection. I caught myself looking for his face in crowded places, I caught myself eager and anxious to meet up with him. I really did like him.

"I guess so too." He says with a small smile.

"So where do you work ?" He asks trying to change the subject.

"I'm a psychologist at Manhattan Psychiatric Center and plus I have my own private office. What about you ?"

"I'm a biochemist. I work at both New York Presbyterian Lower Manhattan and Medical and Sciences corporation."

The waiter brings in our meals. I make a low moan while taking a bite of the Spaghetti Chitarra. It taste so good, so tasty.

"Seeing you in that dress makes me want to take you right here right now on the table. You look like a seductive temptress." He says wiping his mouth with a napkin.

"I thought you promised you'd behave." I tease him with a slight smirk.

"All I could think about is my body on top of yours covered in sweat as I thrust deep inside of you making you scream my name over and over till your voice is hoarse and body is sore from all the different positions that I plan to try on you tonight. I promised I'd behave, but I won't be a gentleman. I'm a starved man sunshine and you my dear are my meal. "

Him saying that to me makes me clench my thighs giving me a clear image on what I'll experience if I agree.

"I won't mind." I reply with a slight smirk. It's true. It's been two years since I haven't had sex. Plus sex with Joshua is like going to heaven and never coming back down to Earth.

"Check please." Joshua yells out to a waiter while looking at me with his signature mischievous smirk.

Oh oh. Guess I've been a bad girl.