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Ichimatsu x suicidal! reader

WARNING : THIS WILL BE TRIGGERING!! INVOLVES SELF HARM AND ATTEMPTED SUICIDE. GET HELP IF SUICIDAL OR DON'T , JUST DON'T THINK ABOUT ALL THE CONSEQUENCES OF YOU COMMITTING SUICIDE. THE PAIN DOESN'T DISAPPEAR, ONLY YOUR EXISTENCE.

I stood by a bridge. The bridge Karamatsu would always hang around ,but it was dark and the painful man must have been inside his house already. Recently I had nothing to live for. My boyfriend doesn't love me. My parents don't love me. Everyone pities me. I spoke my boyfriend's infamous words. "I'm an unburnable piece of trash with no will to live." Yeah , my boyfriend is Ichimatsu Matsuno. I forced myself to always be happy around him ,but we got into a fight and now I feel terrible...

Flashback

I was laying on the floor , tears spilling down my cheeks , blood spilling from my wrist. The words of my parents echoed through my head. "You're so stupid! Can't you be useful for once and not a fuck up!" My mother had yelled those words to be exact. Ichimatsu opened my door. "(Y-Y/N)?" He asked in shock. I felt so weak. I noticed that's when he went into his depressed mode. "I knew you never loved me. You planned on leaving me." He said. "Ichi... I do love you." I say weakly. "More Lies?!" He yells. "I SHOULD HAVE NEVER DATED YOU!" He ran out of my room. My heart broke. Couldn't he have seen I was suffering too?

End of Flashback

It's been a week since then. I hadn't eaten or slept and now I'm ready to go to the after life. "(Y/N)!!" I hear a voice yell. I saw Ichimatsu and his brothers. They look worried. I scoff. It's fake. I jump off the bridge. My body hit the water and began filling my lungs. I remember seeing Ichimatsu jump fall into the water and then I blacked out...

When I awoke I was in hospital. Ichimatsu was at the end of my bed. "Ichi?" I ask , my voice was hoarse. Ichimatsu looked up at me , worry and relief filled him eyes. "You're awake!" He says. He stands up and hugs me tightly. I hugged him in return , His warmth somewhat comforting. "I'm sorry." He apologizes. "I was scared to lose you and you probably hate me now ,but I still love you (Y/N) and I always will." He says. I kiss Ichimatsu. He tenses up ,but kisses me back. He then pulls away after a while. His face a bright red. I giggle. "I love you too , Ichi and I'm sorry that I was so selfish. I never thought of you when cutting and I hate myself for that." I say , my voice shrinking with each word I said. Ichimatsu holds up his pinkie. "Then let's promise to never leave each other even if one day we break up." He says. I smile and intertwine my pinkie with his. "Okay. I promise." I say. We smile and I hear a Meow. I saw ESP Kitty  on the floor looking up at us. It jumps on the bed and I pet his head. "He was also worried about you." Ichimatsu says. "I probably was worried more than ESP" ESP kitty says and I realize it still speaks Ichimatsu's thoughts. I smile Ichi blushes. I pick up ESP kitty and hold him close to my chest. I move up and Ichimatsu sits next to me and we play with ESP kitty.

Later that day Ichimatsu had taken me to his house and his brothers were bombarding me with questions about my attempted suicide. I looked down and Ichimatsu yelled at them. "I'LL KILL YOU IF YOU EVER ASK SOMETHING LIKE THAT." He yelled. "But we just want to know!" Osomatsu says. "Yeah , we were worried too." Todomatsu says. I sigh and look up at the sextuplets. "I was just tired of getting hurt." I say and the brothers look at Ichimatsu. "Not by Ichi." I say noticing that they secretly blamed my boyfriend. "I'm picked on at work." I say and the boys all had an evil look on their face especially Ichimatsu. I then held Ichimatsu's hand and we walked to the living room.

The next day I went to work and Everyone rushed to me and gave me gifts and apologized. "Um Thanks?" I say confused and I saw Ichimatsu walk to me. I smile. "It's so nice to see you here." I say to him. Try not to hug Ichi knowing he does not like a lot of physical contact. Ichimatsu nods. "I'll see you later , okay?" He says. I nod and he walks away. I failed to notice the glare he gave my co workers or his brothers sneaking out after him.

SORRY THIS ONE IS SHORT AND CRAPPY ,BUT I LOVE ICHI TOO MUCH SO I HAD TO MAKE ONE ON HIM