X suicidal reader (One shots) (Requests Closed) (On Hold)

Ticci Toby x Suicidal reader

Suicide doesn't kill people sadness does... So stop the sadness and be happy , A wise woman once said 'Fuck this shit' and lived happily ever after. ^-^ Sorry for the language...T-T

This is a request from caitlinnGunderson

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"Yes, Mom. I'll be fine. I'll all you every week, okay?" I said, using my shoulder to hold my phone to my ear. I moved my empty moving boxes to the front door.

"Be careful, okay? I love you." My mom said. 

I smile and sit on the couch. "I love you too, Mom." I said.

"Bye."

"Bye." I hung up the phone. I smiled at it before putting it face down on the couch.

There was a tap on my window. I jumped up. I walked to the window. My footsteps echoed in my living room. I grabbed the curtains, my heart pounded in my chest. My hands shook. I let out a breath and ripped open the curtains. No one was there.

I frowned and looked around my garden. There was no one. I frowned and checked the time. It was almost night time. I decided to watch TV before going to bed.

The next day I sat in my kitchen and look out of the kitchen window. I saw a person standing there. I felt scared. He had orange goggles ,a mouth guard around his mouth and a grey hoodie with a blue hoodie and stripped sleeves. He had two hatchets in his hands. I duck down and crawl to the living room. I look out that window. He was closer to this window and he looked at me. I ducked down and my heart began to beat loudly in my chest. I looked towards the front door and crawl over to there quickly. I make sure that the door is locked then look out of the window close to the door. The man was outside the door. I quickly stood up and ran to the bathroom. I locked the door and closed the top window. I felt tears appear in my eyes. Why is this happening to me again? I walked to the drawer in under the sink. I grabbed my Minora Blade and pulled up my sleeves. I dragged the blade across my wrist multiple times , the red just seemed so beautiful. The blade was a very sharp blade so one cut and a red would instantly form. After a few cuts. I put the blade back and sat on the toilet lid. I waited there... Waiting for a sound for a knock. None came and I felt the bathroom. I looked out all the windows no one was there. I go to the front door. It was still locked. I then go back to my room. I close the window there and then lock the door and lay on the bed. All the thoughts of what happened swarmed in my head. Eventually I fell asleep.

~Dream~

I was running as fast as I could , a man was running after me. He had a smile cut into his cheeks , long black hair and a while hoodie. "GET BACK HERE!" He yells , I didn't stop running. I ran and tripped over my own feet. The man caught up to me. He pinned me to the floor I fought back. "No! Don't!" I screamed , kicking my legs. "GO TO SLEEP!" The man yells and stabs me. He stabs me over and over until I pass out.

~End of dream~

I wake up in a cold sweat , completely scared. I stayed up for the rest of the night until morning the next day. The day was exactly as the day before! I saw that man again.

3 Days pass and I see the man everyday. I honestly didn't care about his presence after Day 2 and it's been like 4 days.

On the 4rth night.

I woke up in a cold sweat. I began sobbing. I had the same nightmare that I do every night. It still scares me no matter how many times I have it. I turn on my side looking to the window I see that it was open. "I found you." A raspy voice said. My eyes widened as I saw that man from my dreams. I was about the scream ,but he puts his hand over my mouth. "Go to Sleep." He says , lifting up his hand , a knife in his hand. I close my eyes , ready to give in. There's no point in resisting if I want to die anyway. However the man suddenly lets go of me and there's a crash in my room. I opened my eyes to see the man that was outside of my house before. He tackled the man down. I sit up and the man with the googles looks at me and says. "Go to *tic* the bathroom and *tic* lock the door." I nod and run to the bathroom. I enter it and lock the door and window like what I did the other day.

I don't know how long I stayed there ,but eventually there was a knock at the door. "You can *tic* come out." A male voice said. It definitely is not the guy who tried to kill me so I open the door. I look up at the man. He was the goggles man. "Thanks for saving me." I say , hiding my body behind the door. "No *tic* problem." The man says and you could tell he was grinning. I step out from behind the door. "I'm (Y/N)." I say and smile. "I know , I'm *tic* Ticci Toby." The male says. I look at him confused and Toby says. "I've been *tic* watching you for a *tic* year now." I nod , putting the pieces together that he watched me since I was by my parents. Ticci Toby and I became friends quickly after that day...

~2 months later~

I sat in my bedroom. I just woke up and experienced that nightmare again. I sat up and pulled the drawer open. I grabbed my Minora blade and made one cut ,but then my door was kicked in. "(Y/N)! Want *tic* some waffles? *tic*" I heard Toby ask. I looked up from my wrist and Toby ran to me. He grabbed my blade. "What are you *tic* doing?" He asks. I say. "I'm trying to get rid of the pain." "By causing *tic* more pain?" He asks. I nod. "Toby , I never told you ,but that man that tried to kill me 3 months ago had once put me in hospital." I say , the memories flowing back and the tears as well. Toby takes off his mouth guard and kisses my forehead. I blushed hard. "I *tic* know. I protected you *tic* after that day! *tic* I fell in love with you *tic* (Y/N)! You're so much *tic* different than anyone *tic* I've ever met!" Toby says. I look up at Toby. He had a whole By the corner of his lips. It showed his teeth.

I put my hand on his cheek. The whole scaring me a bit. "But I cut." I say , ashamed in my cuts suddenly. Toby says. "It does *tic* make you a bad person *tic*. It just shows *tic* you're suffering. I wanna *tic* help everyone see you how *tic* I see you." I ask. "And that is?" Ticci Toby says. "Beautiful , Strong , Smart." I blush and Toby asks me. "(Y/N)*tic* will you please be my *tic* girlfriend?" I nod and hug Toby tightly. Toby then begins tickling me. I burst out laughing ,but Toby doesn't stop there. I try to move out of his grip ,but it doesn't work. "Stop." I say while laughing. Toby stops now and picks me up bridal style. "LET'S GO EAT SOME WAFFLES" He practically yells happily and runs to the kitchen. There was waffles on the table and he places me at the table and we eat the waffles. Him of course eating more than me... Maybe I should stop cutting... I have someone who cares for me and I care about him. I can't stand the thought of losing Toby or how he'd act after my death...

Sorry if this was terrible or if Toby was OC. I didn't know which Toby to so I mixed it a bit T-T.