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Kai Smith x Suicidal! Reader

WE THINK NO ONE UNDERSTANDS THE PAIN WE GO THROUGH. WE DON'T REALIZE THERE ARE PEOPLE WILLING TO HELP US. GET HELP WHILE YOU CAN AND LIVE HOW YOU WANT TO LIVE.

THIS WAS REQUESTED BY caitlinnGunderson

I loved my boyfriend, Kai with all my heart. He was caring, funny and just the best boyfriend I could ask for. However, he thought that... I didn't know he was cheating on me.

I mean why would Kai even go for someone like me? I'm just your average girl and he's the Master of fire.

I was walking around town when I hear a voice call to me. I turn and see Kai. I turn my back to him and Kai runs to me and wraps his arms around me from behind, giving me an embrace. "Why are you ignoring me, babe?" He asks. I sigh and take his arms off of me. "Don't 'babe' me..." I say, holding back my tears. All I could imagine was him cheating on me. "I-I know you're cheating on me," I say and Kai says. "I'm not. I would never cheat on you!" He clenches his fists. I say, tears finally falling from my eyes. "I'm sorry, Kai... I can't do this anymore... I know you flirt with those girls... I-I'm breaking up with you." Kai looked shocked. "No, Please (Y/N)." He begs. I just walk away from Kai, going back home. I didn't want to break up with Kai, but I can't stand the thought that one day he'd leave me one day for a prettier girl who is a ninja or something.

I sat in my room, on my bed. I lifted up my pillow and hugged it. I buried my face in it, just relaxing, but the pain didn't want to go away. I turn my head to the side and saw my blade. I picked it up between my fingers and thought about what to do with it. I lifted up my sleeves and made cuts all over my wrist. I watched the blood flow slows down my hand and I cut my wrist one more time before I had enough. I walked to my bathroom, cleaned off the blade, and put it back under my pillow. The rest of the day, I spent inside of my house, watching movies and occasionally slashing my wrists.

The next day I woke up to my doorbell ringing loudly. I groan and check the time. 10:30 am. That's too early! I sit up and fix my hair as I walk to the door. The doorbell rings again and I open the door, only to see Kai. I glare at him and try to close the door, but he holds the door. "Wait (Y/N), hear me out." He says. I sigh and open the door again. "What do you want?" I ask and practically glare at him. Kai says. "I know you thought I cheated on you, but I didn't I swear. Just give me another chance. I love you." I glare at him even more. "Just leave me alone," I say and slam the door closed. I rub my eyes so I don't end up crying. "Stupid, Stubborn Idiot...." I mumble to myself. As soon as I said that all my happy moments with Kai came flashing back from our first kiss and the first date to our 4th date and us cuddling in my bed. I missed him a lot maybe too much. I went to my room and took the blade out from under my pillow. I breathed in slowly and cut over the cuts from the previous day. It hurt, but it's worth it, right?

Suddenly the blade was taken from my hand. I felt a chest press to my back. "Why?" A voice asks. It was Kai. "How did you even get in?" I ask, tensing up a bit. Kai says. "I'm a Ninja remember?" I smile, but I immediately turn it into a frown, and Kai holds my wrist, examining it from behind me. "Why are you hurting yourself?" He asks. He sounded so angry. I hold back my tears. "I-I was scared to lose you to someone else who was more useful than me. She'd have better looks than me and -and.." I couldn't finish my sentence. I burst into tears. Kai says in a gentle voice. "There's no one like you. You're the most unique and most beautiful girl whether you see that or not. I love you for you besides no one could beat your beauty." He says and kisses my cheek. I blush and say. "B-but if she's a ninja... You'd probably leave me in a second." Kai says. "Nope, I love protecting you from bad guys." I lay a bit against him. "Please, don't cut again. I love you and the thought of losing you is terrible..." He says. I say. "I can't guarantee that." I cross my arms. Pain surges through my body as the cuts brush against my clothing. Kai says. "Then tell me or call me. We can play video games, talk, go on a date. Anything that will cheer you up." He places his chin on my shoulder blade and I smile. "Okay..., but what if I don't want to?" I ask and he says. "I'd be around you most the time so you'd have no choice." I sigh. "You're so stubborn," I say and he says. "But you love me for that, don't you?" I nod. "Yes, my ninja," I say and turn around to face the male. Kai kisses my forehead. I smile and peck his lips. "Does this mean we're dating again?" Kai asks. I nod and Kai says. "Of course we are." He kisses my lips and I kiss him back. I pull away from the kiss and say. "I love you, Kai." He says with a smile. "I love you too,(Y/N)."

Sorry if Kai is a bit OC or it completely sucks ^-^