X suicidal reader (One shots) (Requests Closed) (On Hold)

Rin Okumura X Suicidal! Reader

Hey, you. You're beautiful. You're so amazing I cannot even begin to explain. You've lasted so long through a tough world. I love you.

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Rin smiled at me. "I'll see you tomorrow." He said. I nodded.

I kissed his cheek and his face exploded into red. He was so easily flustered. "You're too cute." I teased.

"I'm not!" He said and kissed my lips. I smiled and kissed him back.

Yukio cleared his throat as he stared at us. He kept a straight face, but he was clearly embarrassed. I pulled away from the kiss. "Okay, I'll be going." I said. I left their Yukio and Rin's dorm.

~~Time Skip to the next morning~~

I groaned. My body ached. I rubbed my wrists. They were littered with cuts. I let out a sigh and stared at them. I made deep ones the previous night.

I saw Rin. He was looking around and frowned. I walked to him. I forced a smile. "Good Morning." I greeted.

My heart cracked when he walked away from me. I held my hands to my chest as I took a breath. I followed him to class.

He sat in his desk. He, again, looked around before laying on his arms. I laid on my arms and stared at him. Normally he'd fall asleep in class, but this time he was wide awake and his mind seemed to wonder.

I listened as Yukio taught class. I didn't bring books to write in. I frowned, I couldn't leave class so I hoped that I could copy from Rin later.

Rin stared at me, but when I waved my hand to get his attention he didn't respond. I sighed and once the bell rang for break, I jumped up and stood in front of him.

He stood still as I held my arms out to stop him from walking. "Rin!" I cried out. He couldn't look at me. He looked towards my desk. His ears drooped. "What is going on?"

He looked at me and his mouth opened to say something. He closed it again. He looked around, no one else was in class except him, Yukio and I.

"Something is wrong!" He cried out. His hair hid his eyes, but his voice was filled with despair.

"What do you mean?" I asked. I reached out to touch him, but he shook his head.

"I don't know what." His voice cracked and Yukio put his hand on Rin's shoulder. "Something happened to her." He said.

Yukio shook his head. "Nothing happened to her. We can go to her dorm now. She's probably just sick." He answered.

I frowned. Shiemi was in class today and Izumo. No one was absent today. "Guys, This makes no sense." I say and sit on top of the desk.

Rin walked to the door. He looked at Yukio and I. "It makes no sense. Im going to find out now. She lied to us, ya know." Rin said. He clenched his teeth. His face scrunched up in pain. "I hope we're not too late." He said.

Rin ran out of the building. I clenched my fists. Why weren't they listening to me? Tears dripped down my cheeks. They're ignoring me.

They really don't like me anymore. They seemed fine last night. I looked at my wrists. I looked at Yukio. He wasn't looking at me, he was on his phone.

I suggest my nails into my wrists. I tore at my skin, but there was no marks. I huffed in frustration.

I walked to Yukio. "Yukio, Why are you ignoring me?" I asked, but he didn't answer. He frowned and spoke on the phone.

I frowned and threw his papers off of his desk. He looked at the papers in shock. "Why are you ignoring me?" I yelled. He picked up his papers and closed the window. I huffed and ran out the door.

I looked for Rin. I ran to the girl's dorm since he mentioned a girl. I down the hallway. He was at my dorm's door. "Rin!" I called to him.  He pushed open the door. He entered and I ran in after him.

"(Y/N)!" He called, gripping the strap of his bag.

"Yes?" I answered. He didn't look at me. He looked in all the rooms. "Rin, Turn around!" He yelled.

Rin let out a sigh. He spoke loudly so that his voice echoed throughout my dorm. "Something happened, didn't it? I know. You're my best friend. I'd know if something was wrong. Why didn't you tell me?" He asked.

He walked to the bathroom. The door was locked. He wiggled it. He frowned. "Rin, Nothing is wrong. I'm fine." I said. Tears ran down my cheeks. My heart ached. I couldn't tell him about how I self harmed.

"You were so happy last night. That was fake, wasn't it?" He asked. He banged on the bathroom door. "(Y/N)! Just open up. Please." His voice cracked again. I dropped to my knees. I cried.

Rin rammed his shoulder into the door until it broke down. He gasped out before screaming my name. I quickly got on my feet and watched as he picked up my corpse. My blood was spilled all over the floor.

My chest ached. That's right. I killed myself last night. The gun was next to Rin. I had stolen a gun from Yukio and shot myself in the head.

I walked to him. Tears rapidly rolled down his cheeks. "No, No." he chanted as he cradled my body.

"I'm sorry, Rin." I said. He hugged me tightly. I hugged him from behind.

"Don't leave me. I love you." He said. I shook my head. I walked so that I stood in front of him.

"I love you too." I said and kissed the top of his head.

Yukio entered the bathroom. "Rin!" He said before his eyes landed on my body.

He saw his gun and clenched his fists. "I'm sorry. It's my fault." Yukio said and help his head in his hands.

"No, Yukio." I said and walked to him.

"I should have noticed my gun was gone." He said. Rin shook his head.

"It's not your fault. I just wish that we could have saved her. We could have helped her. She seemed so happy. I should have... It's my fault." Rin cried out.

Rin picked up the gun and held it to his head. "No." Yukio and I cried out. I ran to him and as he pulled the trigger. He slumped to the floor. He was dead.

I gripped my throat as I cried. Yukio's eyes widen and he let out a scream in agony. I shook my head. "Yukio, I'm sorry!" I yelled. The sun shone on me. My body faded.

Before my vision became blank, I saw the authorities enter the bathroom and pulled Yukio out.

"I'm sorry." I mumbled as I blacked out.

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