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Luffy D Monkey x Suicidal! Reader part 2!

This is a continuation of the first one I posted.

Suicide is a option. It's a choice. You don't have to do it. You can live on. You can smile one day. The future is worth it. The pain is not temporary.

Requested by Pandasupergirl

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Luffy awoke from his sleep. He looked to his side. (Y/N) was gone. He sat up and looked around. Everyone was asleep. He stood up and walked outside.

He stretched and looked around. Normally, Luffy would sleep late, but something was wrong. He looked around and didn't see (Y/N).

Luffy walked to the kitchen. There was a note on the table. He rubbed the back of his head, normally Sanji would leave a note to tell Luffy to not eat the food. He looked at the fridge and saw another note.

He walked to the one that was on the table. He picked it up and read it.

Luffy frowned, his heart raced. He dropped the paper and ran out on the deck.

"(Y/N)!" He screamed, desperate. Desperate for her to return.

Luffy climbed onto the railing, ready to jump off and go looking for her.

A hand shot out and grabbed him. It pulled him back. It was Frankie.

"Luffy, What's going on?" He asked, tired.

The strawhats all gathered around their captain. Tears rolled down his cheeks. "She's gone. (Y/N) is gone. She left a note in the kitchen. We have to go find her. " Luffy explained.

"What?!" Sanji yelled, furious. Furious that Luffy had hurt his sister so bad that she ran away. He ran to the kitchen.

Sanji found the note and walked back to his crew members. He read over it as he walked. He rubbed his eyes as he tried not to cry.

His little sister – the only family member he still saw every day – was gone. He walked to the group and glared at Luffy and Zoro. Especially Zoro. "This is your fault!" Sanji yelled.

Nami took the page from Sanji and read it out loud.

"Dear Strawhat crew,

I am leaving. I can't forget the pain that you have caused me. You all turned your backs to me the second I did something wrong and even then it wasn't my fault.

If I was a better person, it wouldn't have happened. I'm a horrible person. I can't even make Luffy happy, we were dating for 3 years.

I can't love myself so that means my own namaka cannot love me. There is no point in living.

No one will ever love me, I know this. Im only a burden to you and that's all I'll ever be so I'm leaving. Im sorry that you were stuck with me for so long.

I'm sorry Sanji. I love you with all my heart and I don't mean to cause you pain, but I can't continue on this journey with you.

I'm leaving and I'm never coming back. I hope everyone will finally be happy.

-From (Y/N)"

"She can't leave. She's not a burden! She's... She's the best thing that could have ever happened to me! (Y/N) is my Namaka." Luffy cried out.

Zoro stared down at the floor. "It's my fault. I shouldn't have kissed her. I'm sorry." He said.

"Sorry isn't going to bring my little sister back!" Sanji yelled. He raised his leg to kick Zoro.

"Sanji, stop it." Nami begged, but he didn't listen. Sanji beat up Zoro.

Nami looked around, guilt breaking her heart. Everyone around her was having a breakdown.

Usopp, Frankie, Chopper and Brook were crying. They get guilty. They hurt (Y/N) so much.

Luffy was on his knees, his forehead was pressed to the floor. Tears streamed down his cheeks. He was in agony.

He lost another Namaka. He couldn't forgive himself.

Robin broke up the fight between Sanji and Zoro, tears also streaming down her cheeks.

"We can look for her." She said, Her voice cracked.

Nami rubbed her eyes to wipe her tears away and nodded. "We can look for her. We can help her, convince her that we need her." She said.

"We should have done helped (Y/N) the second she started cutting!" Sanji yelled. He was furious, he didn't mean to yell at Nami and Robin, but he did. 

Sanji clenched his fists as tears ran down his cheeks. He turned his back to his crew mates and ran away from the group.

Luffy stood up, his cheeks stained with tears. "Let's find her." He said.

The crew nodded. "We can help her, we can fix this." Usopp said and Chopper nodded.

Nami helps navigate the crew to the closest island. They split up and look her her.

"Have you seen a girl with (hair colour and length) hair? She's about this tall."

"No. No one has come to this island at all for the past week."

Luffy was desperate. He turned to his crew. "The next island. Now." He said. They nodded and moved to the next one.

"Have you seen a girl with (hair colour) hair, and (eye colour) eyes? She's about this tall."

"No, sorry."

Sanji frowned, he was desperate. He couldn't lose his sister.

They went to the next island.

"As anyone come to this island recently? We're looking for a girl, she's about this tall and has (hair colour) hair and (eye colour) eyes."

"No girls at all, only guys."

Nami bit her lip and crossed her arms. If only she didn't insult (Y/N). She should have helped her instead.

Her own words ran through her head. "Once a cutter, always a cutter."

Night fell soon and they were still a distance from the next island. Everyone went to the kitchen to talk.

They were all upset about losing (Y/N). They discussed ways to bring her back and ways to find her.

Luffy chose to stay outside. He sat on the Thousand Sunny's head. He looked up at the stars.

"Come back! I'll be a better boyfriend. I promise. Please." Luffy begged, crying.

"(Y/N)!"

Hours later, everyone went to their rooms though no one could sleep. They couldn't sleep knowing that someone they love is gone.

Luffy walked to the kitchen. For once, it wasn't to eat. He grabbed a knife from the drawer. He never thought he'd do this. He climbed back onto the Thousands Sunny's head to not get caught.

He dug the knife into his skin. He made many deep cuts across his arm. The cuts all formed, (Y/N).

Luffy put the knife down. He stared at the blood pouring from his skin.

"Please come back, (Y/N)."

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