X suicidal reader (One shots) (Requests Closed) (On Hold)

Shouta Aizawa X Male! Suicidal! Student! Reader

You gotta love yourself first. You'll be happy then. No, it's not selfish. You're just giving yourself the love you never received and you deserve it.

This is requested by ripfaiiry

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I rubbed my eyes as I stared at the board. I covered my mouth as I yawned. For the past 5 days I've gotten 4 hours of sleep. I've been struggle to concentrate in Mr Aizawa's class.

He looked in my direction as I drifted to sleep. "(Y/N), Don't sleep in my class!" He scolded at me.

I sat up straight and stretched. "Sorry, Sir." I said and watched as he continued teaching.

I frowned and patiently waited for class to be over. It was home time soon, but I refuse to go home.

I placed my chin on my palm. I let out a sigh and stared at the board. Mr Aizawa opened his mouth to scold me again as I drifted to sleep, but the bell rang.

The loud noise shook me awake. I packed away my bags. I walked to the door.

"(Y/N), come here." Mr Aizawa called. I nodded and walked to him. I stood at his desk. I straightened my messy hair and fixes my tie. "Why are you falling asleep in my class?" He asked.

I looked away from him as he stared at me. Mr Aizawa always had an affect on me. I had a crush on him, but of course I'm a guy. He'd never like me back. To make it worse, I was his student.

"Sorry, sir. I have trouble sleeping." I said and fixed my sleeves.

Mr Aizawa kept his black face. "Make sure you sleep." He said. I nodded.

I said goodbye to him and went home. I walked slowly. I didn't want to go home to my parents.

They always fought. They yelled at each other and sometimes it would get physically. They'd fight whole night and I couldn't get any sleep. I just wanted a good life, it doesn't have to be perfect.

I opened the door and my dad was yelling. "Our son is gay because of you! It is disgusting and a disgrace!"

My mother yelled back. "Don't you dare disrespect my son! He's perfect just the way he is!"

I clutched my chest as my parents argued over me. It's my fault. I walked past them to my room.

"You don't even greet us, (Y/N)! Why are you so late? Did you have sex with a boy after school? You're so disgusting! Why would anyone even want you? You're so useless and ugly." My father yelled.

Tears rolled down my cheeks. I shook my head. "Shut up!" I begged. My father walked to me and punched me in my face. I held my eye in shock.

My mother hit my father and they fought with their quirks. I ran to my room. I locked the door. I cried in my room. My father was right.

I cried myself to sleep, but I was quickly awoken by all the noise from the fighting. I stood up and walked to the drawer in my room. I took out my blade.

I cut deep, messy lines on my thighs. It burned and pained, but I need it. I needed something to take my mind off my parents fighting.

I let out a sigh as I stood up. I took out my books. I began with my homework. I studied and I fell asleep at my desk.

The next morning I awoke to my mother shaking me awake. She kissed my forehead.

"Good Morning, Sweetie." She greeted. "I know this is not what you wanted to hear so early in the morning, but your father and I are divorcing. You'll come to live with me. We're moving tomorrow." She said. She cupped my face and brushed the hair out of my face. She shook her head.

"He won't hurt us anymore." She said and hugged me. I hugged her tightly.

"Thank you." I said. She pulled from the hug and forced me to get done for school.

I didn't tell anyone that I was leaving. They wouldn't notice if I left, I know.

I kept my mouth shut as the Bakusquad made a lot of noise in class. I watched as Mr Aizawa scolded at them.

I laughed lightly. Bakugou glared at me. "Shut up, idiot!" He yelled. I shrugged. He was ready to grab me.

"Sit down!" Aizawa yelled. The bell rang and I smiled. Bakugou glared at me as he left.

Once everyone was out of the classroom I walked to Mr Aizawa.

"Sir, I won't be coming to school anymore." I said and clutched my bag straps.

"Why not?" Mr Aizawa asked and frowned. I rubbed the back of my neck.

"I'll be moving away." I said. Mr Aizawa nodded.

I said goodbye to him. He greeted me back and I walked to the door. I frowned and stopped walking.

I turned to him. "Sir, I need to tell you something before I go." I said. I walk back to his desk.

I let out a breath, determined to tell him about my crush before I go.

"Are you going to explain how you got your blue eye?" He asked.

I frowned and held my eye. I completely forgot about that. I shook my head.

"Sir, I... I like you. I like you more than I'm supposed to." I said and nervous pulled on my bag strap.

"(Y/N)-" He tried to answer. I shook my head.

"It's not allowed. I know, but I needed to get it off my chest." I smiled at him. "No one would ever like me. My own father gave me this blue eye because I'm gay." I explained. I turned my back to Mr Aizawa.

"Tell my mother that I love her." I said and ran out the classroom.

"(Y/N)!" He called to me again. I heard him run behind me.

Tears dripped down my face as I ran out of the school and into the road. I turned to face him as his bandages shot out to grab me. I closed my eyes and I was met by darkness. Pain filled my body and I closed my eyes.

I smiled, knowing that my father didn't have to worry about a disgrace like me. Maybe now, my parents wouldn't have to divorce.

I woke up in hospital. The beeping sound rang in my ears. I groaned and my mother hugged me tightly.

"I was so worried." She cried out. I looked down at my arms, ashamed. My cuts were visible. "Don't do that again, please." My mother begged. I nodded though, i would obviously attempt it in the future.

My mother kissed my forehead and cheeks. "I love you so much." She said and hugged me again before letting go.

"Your father is in jail. After your teacher saved you, he told the police everything. We don't have to move." She said and smiled. I nodded and smiled. The door opened and Mr Aizawa walked in.

I smiled at him. The doctor entered the room and called my mother. She left, leaving Mr Aizawa and I in the same room.

It was awkward since I confessed to him. "Next time, Don't save me." I said and crossed my arms.

"I'll save you over and over again." He said and walked to me. He sat down in the chair next to me. "I refuse to let you die."

I shook my head. I looked down. "I deserve to die." I said, tears dripping down my cheeks.

"You deserve to live. You are a hero in training and I know you'll make a good hero. You've been in my class for a few months and I am honoured to have you in my class." Mr Aizawa said.

I smiled and wiped my tears. "I look forward to you being in my class again soon." He said and held my hand.

"Me too." I said and hugged him.

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