I know I doubt myself. I know I am not enough.
You know what, I will be religious for the rest of my life! This is how I will be satisfied.
Oh look at these girls.. how beautiful they are.. because they are not religious like me!
Am I really that bad? Am I really that unsatisfying?
Let's try something else!
I am going to.. rebel!
Release me from these clothes, let me put makeup on, let me be one of these girls!
Yet I am still not happy..
Maybe I will be happier if my parents were less strict!
They are ruining my life! They are literally destroying my self-esteem!
But.. they raised me well up I.. I love them.
I don't wanna be one of these girls.. I just want to have some fun..
Maybe love will do! Maybe should I fall for this guy, he treats me good,
Tall and handsome.. he is all I need!
But.. he is so cold.. he has no feelings, nor towards me, nor towards anyone..
Sigh, I am doomed. I am not worthy of love, not worthy of anything..
No! let me reach my goals! I want to be.. a doctor!
A therapist!
no.. AN ARCHITECT!
No, no, no, .. hmph!
No, I will be something, self-doubt.
Aaaand I finally reached my goal! I am finally satisfied with college!
But wait.. is that the end of the road?
Let's try having a crush on that guy!
Do you think he has a crush on me, my friends? Do you? or do you? and do YOU?
He seems nice, he says my voice is beautiful. Do I have a nice voice? Do I even sound nice?..
Oh my goodness, he is lame..
He is not worth it.
He is fuckboy.
He.. embarrassed me..
I was wrong I shouldn't have trusted him.. oh look! a guy!
Does he love me? Are we friends? Are we more than that?
Does he still love his ex? or maybe he loves me!
No he doesn't, silly!
Or maybe, he does..
Mixed signals everywhere.
God I am gonna explode!
AND I am a failure.. Am I?
Am I disappointing? Am I ugly?
Do I even exist?..
Ooooooh God, release me!
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Self doubt can really be exhausting, especially with girls. They are not being dramatic or pmsing, it is just.. them.
Always be nice, and always remember that sometimes people really think they are not enough. Help instead of making fun!
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Struggles
General FictionThese chapters talk about everyone of us, we are all going through wars out and in our minds. These heroes are still struggling and so are you! Pray and spread love!
