Struggles

A hidden wonder!

My dad is too stressful. Me and my siblings never said we had harsh time being separated with mom from him.

He never left us alone, but he and mom never get along. That's why we live with her and he is not there.

I never said I was happy with that, but I was much relieved when I was older. If my dad had lived with us, it could have been a nightmare for me.

I wish I could change him, but I can't.

I have to lie about being brilliant so he doesn't get angry.

My dad is so strict, he doesn't understand that I am a success. I have published papers, successful events.. I even like something so much, it is just that he doesn't get it.

I wish he would understand that people say I am a wonder. I am not being cocky, it is just what people really say, I am really confident.

Oh dad, I wish could understand that traveling for a scholarship IS a good thing, you shouldn't be so worried about me!

But you never do.

You know what? I am really proud of mom. She has always done the best she could for me.

Yes, mom is everything for me. She encourages me to do what I love and what I can.

However, my father doesn't.

I wish I could have been a wonder under spot light. I know one day I will be, I will prove my father wrong and I will stand up before him.

It is just that.. not being encouraged by my father sometimes lets me down. It is like, you should be proud of me, why do you hate every single thing that is new to you?

Why are you overprotective? What is wrong with me that is unsuitable for being happy and doing whatever I want to do?

Besides, I am doing nothing wrong!

Yes dad, I am gonna be something great that you will hear of me without seeing my on the stage!

No dad, I regret nothing about all the lying!

Dad, maybe I love you, but I am sorry I don't like you- thanks to you.