Losing Youself (Fall Out Boy and Panic at the Disco Fanfiction)//Finished

Brendon's POV

This is Brendon's POV showing what he was doing after the break up. After I finish the story, I will come back and add more details :D The end of the story's coming really soon. Oh and thanks for getting it to 2.1k in a short time!

I stood there and watched her leave. My heart hurt a little, but not like it was breaking into a million pieces. I know now that I should have never lead her on, but I didn't want to hrt her. I decide to go out after the guys went to sleep. I quickly change clothes and met Ashley outside.

"Hey baby," she said smiling.

"Hey babe," I say kissing her on the lips.

"What do you want to go do," she asks holding my hand.

"I don't know. Anything good to do at 4 in the morning," I ask softly laughing.

"Clubs," she says.

As the moons goes down and the sun comes up, we dance and drink. I eventually get drunk, and we decide to call it a night. She won't let me drive no matter how much I beg. When we arrive at my house, she turns the car off.

"God, you look so beautiful," I slur as a slide my thumb over her cheek bone.

"Aw thanks, and you're quiet handsome yourself," she says blushing.

I can't take it anymore. I take my seat belt off and kiss her. She presses her hands against the window as I slowly kiss her neck. We take each other's clothes off until there isn't anything to take off. It's heated and passionate. I've never heard a sweeter sound coming out of her mouth than when she's whimpering my name from her mouth. When it's over. we lay in the backseat. She's laying on top of me asleep. I look at her and see Erica flash through my mind... almost like memories of Erica smiling and laughing. I shake my head, and Erica's face quickly disappears from my mind. Minutes later, I fall asleep.

I wake up to Spencer banging on the window. Ashley and I both jump up. She quickly covers herself with her clothes. I put on my boxers and open the door.

"I can't believe you, dude. You just broke Erica's heart, and now you're sleeping around with some girl hours after Erica leaves! The old you would have never ever done this," Spencer says stomping back into the house.

Ashley puts her clothes on, and I kiss her on the lips.

"Don't worry about what everyone's saying. I love you," I say.

"Okay, I love you too," she says smiling slightly.

I get out of the car, and she leaves. I run my fingers through my hair and walk inside. The guys are all sitting around whispering and making big hand gestures.

"If you have something to say, just say it to my face," I say putting my hands in my pockets.

"Fine. You're acting like a complete douche bag," Dallon says.

"If you can't realize that, then don't even talk to me... except for when we're playing or practicing," Kenneth says walking out of the room.

One by one the rest of the guys follow. The days after that are filled with practicing. The only time the guys talk to me is to go over lyrics or tour. At night, I go over to Ashley's, and we end up watching movies, partying, or sleeping with each other. I don't even give Erica a second thought except for one morning. I wake up to find her all over TMZ. It's pictures of Dallon and her walking out of the venue. Her crying, and him comforting her. Flashing across the bottom of the screen is 'Breakup Equals Future Relationship?' Dallon walks in the room and stops when he sees the TV.

"Oh no, no, no," he mumbles pulling out his phone.

He quickly punches in a number.

"Hey, Erica," he says walking out of hearing range.

I turn the channel and minutes later he walks back in the room with a worried look on his face.

"I know that you don't want to talk to me, but why are you so worried," I ask him.

"I... we all know how hard it can be in high school with the bullies and stuff. It was hard for me without being all over the news. I can only imagine what it will be like for her. It's not what I would call a great way to start off senior year," he says walking out of the room.

I feel like this is all my fault. I didn't tell her about Ashley and me, and now she's paying for it. I fall asleep on the couch. My dreams are like little films. They only last about a minute or two before a new one shows up. I wake up to hear my phone ringing. The name Jess appears on the screen. Isn't that a friend Erica mentioned?

I answer the phone and say, "Hello."

"Listen here you little shit. You've cheated on my best friend with some low down piece of trash. Which caused her to get in the media and not in a good way. Which led to her getting beat up by some annoying bitches. You've ruined her life. I liked you at first, but now I fucking hate you... you piece of shit. You need to find some way to fix all of this and fast," Jess says slightly yelling.

She hangs up before I can say anything.