I knew that I was getting "jiggly"
I saw it in the mirror
In tight jeans
In tighter shirts
There were lumps in all the wrong places
But ultimately
It didn't hurt at first
But
It hurt when I couldn't sit down without a snarky remark
On my "growth"
That was just my thighs
It hurt when I couldn't buy clothes without a lecture on what I'm "lacking"
That was just my boobs
Or "lack" thereof
It hurt when I couldn't leave the dressing room
Because my normal shirt size didn't fit
And the salesmen made me wanna cryThat was just my stomach
It stopped hurting
When I didn't give a fuck anymore
Not with bullshit padded bras and dresses
Not with girl chats about flat chests
Not with bitchy gloating people
And comments like
"they'll come through when you get your rags"It also helps
That my wardrobe changed
To suit my new confident feel
And now I've evened out
Boobs are like a weapon
That stay hidden under layers of school uniformAnd come out on weekends and weeknights
To breathe
Thighs are just there
Now I know I cant blame 'them' on myselfIt wasn't glutton
It was genetics
And it shouldn't have taken so long to know that
My stomach has always been this way
I think puberty made it more apparent
And if I really can't embrace it
I'll diet
When I can be bothered
Until then
I will embrace the new me
Who never gives a fuck
And has the dazzling
Unashamed
Honesty
And confidence
Of a Dove ad modelAnd just lives her best life
And refuses
To let
ANY
Of that
Complete
And utter
Bullshit
Ever hurt her
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Shit rant poems
PoetryThere are so so so many typos and one day, I'll fix them all.....maybe