Shit rant poems

I think

I think it's because I've found someone so amazing

I think that she could never leave me

Its that I think it's worth the chance

Of being left

And heartbroken again

I think it's because I know I can do and handle all the things that make me nervous

Or cry

I think I believe I'm unbreakable

I also think I'm a fucking idiot

But I also think I'm in love

I think whatever it is, it's so powerful that it just happens

I think that it's so strong I don't even know what could happen

I think I'm setting myself up to be hurt again

To be left behind

To do dumb shit

I think I'm reverting back to this lovesick phase

Like when I lent a girl my jacket

And she had it for 3 weeks

And i wouldnt let her return it because I knew she would be so cold without it

And it made my heart so warm

I think I did it because I just wanted some part of me to be with her

I think I was crazy

I think I should have never let her give it back

Because when she did she left

But I didn't know that when i got it back

I thought I'd see her again

So I paraded that jacket around

So happy and confident

And it smelt so much like her

When I got home I laid on it
Wrapped in her scent

And I hid it when my family got home

I still never told them how I felt

I think now I feel that same kind of thing again

Except now it's worse

I think I obsess

Over pictures of us together

And naps on her shoulder in math

I think I'll get left again

I think I'll be shattered

I don't think I care enough

For myself

To let myself

Even try

To stop

So

I think

I'll let her

Do anything

Her heart desires

To us

And

When she breaks me

I think after time

I'll probably let her do it again

Because

I think I'll follow my

Dumb

Dumb heart

Until it leads me to my end