Shit rant poems

Alone

Seeing the pretty girl

With cute hair
A nice face
And beautiful body

Bend over my books to get to hers

While I stand directly behind

Perversely froze my brain
For a good thirty seconds

In that time I left class myself

And still hadn't rebooted when I reached the locker bay

It didn't help that every girl

Ones I know
Or don't

Ones that are nice
And some that aren't

Some with make up and tight uniforms
Others snug

Was there
I felt like my mind was a cloud

But somehow seeing

The boys

The boyfriends, best friends, brothers and cousins

Reminded me

Brought me back

And left me with a reminder to leave with

You are alone

And sent me back to an earlier conversation

My friend said that she wished I had someone

Romantic or not

To just keep me company

Happy

Stable through everything

Fuck I wish that too

So much

But I'm not quite there yet

I think I'm missing the key things

And little by little

It kills me