Shit rant poems

Less Now (An honest to god awful terrible no good poem)

This isn't just

Now I'm here

Now I'm gone

It's always been like that

Have you ever even missed me at all?

Lets cut that shit &

Listen up motherfucker

I'm here less now

Catch me when you can

If you can

If you're ever even here either

Doesn't matter

I'm practically gone

& people hardly know

People never know

If they might be able to see me when

I appear

Yet I'm just not there

Maybe no one even cares though

Maybe I didn't think to care too

I don't know

But theres

No longer to think

No time to stop

Who cares

Checking in with people is overrated

& so is writing

When nothing is ever returned

& yes

Going without all this

Has sent me turning

And spinning

Into deficit

And I am now

In the simplest terms

Cannot feel that certain kind of

Warmth or living feeling inside

As fucking always

I'll just have to be fine

Just let the

Warmth of tea, hubris & ginger

Fill my being

And keep on pretending

That

I'm shut off

Or that guilt of people who don't care about me

Doesn't affect me

Or keep me up at night

Like they're bound to always

Fucking do