It was last night
A dream
And it was so clear
So fucking
Crystal perfect
Deep in my mind
Buried amongst extra pillows and blankets
And sheets
Brought in to combat summer heat
You were there
Sad
Full of this sorrow
Pity for yourself
So ready to be hated or punished
But that would never happen
That would never happen because I would never do that to you
Anyway
Here is how it went
The sequence of events
I was fast asleep
I think diagonally
On a body pillow
Covered in duvet and within a sheet
The fan running on high
I felt a tug
From the right side of the bed
You
Seeing if I'm awake
I groaned
A mix of fear
Tiredness
Confusion
Then I remember our conversation on the left
After I'd stop being scared
And had sat
Bolt upright
Scaring your bambi like way
So clearly poised in the dark
While my reflection for once
It didn't show the same manner back to me
Only because my mirrors were too dark
But really I was as scared as you.
So
We were standing on the other side of my bed
You told me
Something
And
Now this is the part
That makes me sure it was a dream
Because I know I just have a paranoid fear
Probably of the dark and squeaks of floors
Confined to what seems like my room only
But you said
That you were the one
The one that had been watching over me
The catalyst of my fears
But protector of self too
And I wish that you had said you loved me
To no avail though
I only saw it in your eyes
You just looked down
Sorry
And I kinda dived
Tackled you to the ground
You expected it was violently
The readers might see it as sexually
But it really
Was a hug
And I remember saying
It was fine
And you're perfect
And I love you
And I will protect you
Because instead of saying you love me
You said you had to go
And that you couldn't come back
And I could fucking feel
Within my heart and trembling hands
That you were in trouble
And my heart lurched
Because I just me you
And i wasn't about to be without
And I guess
Then
At some point we got up
And after however many hours
Or whatever stretch of time
I woke up
And
That was my first dream
Before going back to sleep
And
The second round
Was
Mindless bullshit
With nothing about you
Which is fucked
Because I need to know you
What is your name
What us your story
Do you love me back as clearly and strongly
Or is it nothing
And just a dream
If a cruel mind
Because
You were amazing to meet
And
To do so again
Would be
Fucking
Exhilarating
And to have you stay
Would be even motherfucking more so
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Shit rant poems
PoetryThere are so so so many typos and one day, I'll fix them all.....maybe