Twisted Love

Chapter 49

While getting ready for the office, my mind could not just stop thinking. I was nervous. No wait I was very nervous. Suddenly everyone was angry with me. I felt so strange going to the office, so much that I even thought of giving it a miss today but I am not in school or college anymore and I'd have to face them anyway. I can't run from the three of them.

I drove to the office. Surprisingly there was no traffic today and I reached office pretty quickly. Don't know if it's a good thing or not.

I reached my desk and Nate was not there today waiting for me. It is not like that I expected him to be yet I felt something. I was sad again but I guess this was just the start. A lot is going to happen today. I looked around and Nate entered the room. He looked at me and walked straight towards his seat. Just in the queue Alice arrived. She glared at me but having no choice sat beside me. I am sure if she had a choice she would have sat somewhere else today. I took a long deep breath before uttering any word.

"Alice?" I called her but no response.

I called her again. "Alice", and she ignored me again.

"Alice, I am sorry alright. I.."

"It's not me to whom you should say sorry." She finally spoke and left me dumbstruck.

"Alice, what.."

"Do you even care about us, about me or Nate. Do you care about his feelings at all? He was the one he was there with you, by your side when you were depressed, when Mason left you. He was the one who used to do everything to cheer you up. He called me yesterday and told me his conversation with you. He was upset after that and I insisted him to come and hang out with me. You told him that you were busy and then we see you with Mason there? Like seriously Elena? Now you will lie to us as well?"

"Alice, I.. "

"What? You can still explain?"

"I know I committed a mistake, okay? and I have hurt you two but you don't know how much miserable I feel right now due to this. I couldn't even sleep properly or think about anything else than this. I can't take it that you are angry with me and Nate..." I took a pause. "I hate myself for doing this to him. I can't erase his look you know from my mind. The sadness that he had in his eyes when he saw us."

She scoffed. "Why do you care."

It wasn't a question but a statement. "I do, Alice. I don't know but yes I do feel something for him. I don't know what but I am certain that there is something." I did not look at her while saying all this.

We heard people greeting someone. I looked at my left and it was Mason. Our eyes met for a second and he looked away and went to his office room. He came around shut the blinds of the window so that no one could see anything. So that I could not see him. I closed my eyes. It indeed is one of the worst day of my life.

"What? Now even he is not talking to you?" Alice asked me.

I nodded.

"Why?"

I turned around her. "After we came back home from the amusement park, Mason found a paper on which I had written a poem."

She was confused. "So?"

"That was the poem that I wrote for Nate in college after we both danced together."

She made an 'O' shape. "But how did he figure it out that it was for Nate and not for him?"

"Well it was an old paper on which it was written."

"So? It could have been of anyone. It might be of Shanaya's."

"I didn't deny when he asked me which ultimately proved him right. I couldn't think of anything at that moment."

"In short you are totally screwed right now."

"Yes I am and I need you."

"I hate that you lied to us."

"I did not mean to but it is just that it was after a very long time that Mason and I were together and we were happy."

"Wait, you said you feel something for Nate earlier. What do you mean by that?"

"I don't know."

"Elena."

"I seriously don't know, Alice. When Mason found that paper he asked me a simple question that do I feel something for Nate but instead of saying no I was quiet. No words came out of my mouth. I was speechless at that moment. Instead all the good moments that I had with him came in my mind and that look of his from amusement park."

"So Mason thinks that you feel something for Nate and Nate thinks you feel something for Mason but the million dollar question whom do you feel for?"

"Both. Nate is someone who I was crazy about before but when he came back in my life I was with someone else already and I was very happy but then when Mason and I parted ways, Nate was the one who was beside me and Mason... I don't know what to say about him. He is someone that I can never see sad. He makes me happy. He gets both best and worst out of me. He can make me laugh and drive me crazy at the same time. I can't even think of losing any of them."

"But you gotta make a decision, Elena. You can't play with their hearts."

"I know."

"So, What will you do? Whom will you choose?"

"I have no idea, Alice. I seriously have no idea." Feeling dejected, I put my head down on my desk.