palaye royale imagines (Requests Open)

the ghost of you (remington)

"Mentions of suicide!!! Please dont read if you are sensitive to this!
I also made the collage on top

   I wake up as my alarm blasts through my ears. I expect to feel a body next to me,but don't. I'm still not used to the fact that hes not here.

Emerson calls me. Nothing out of the ordinary. He asks me what my plans are for the day. I tell him nothing since I'm off. He asks if I want to go to the cafe down the road from me. I say sure and get ready. I'm guessing this is like a date. I havent dated anyone since he left. It feels weird since Emerson's his brother. I ignore it and try to get out of my own head.

While I'm getting ready I can't help but feel him next to me. The normally hot room has a chill to it. They say rooms are cold when spirits are present.

I get to the cafe and I see him there. We talk for a little bit. He and Sebastian have stopped making music since the departure of their brother vocalist. They released the album they were working on but vowed to leave the industry after its release. 

After a good three hours of hanging out I head home. I walk through the door and see him standing there. I know its all in my head but seeing him again in any way makes me feel better.

He smiled at me. I try so hard not to cry. I run to him. Holding him so he won't leave again. I sob and sob. "R-r-rem I'm- s-so-sorry I kn-know he's- he cuts me off with a kiss. "Its fine y/n. I would rather you find love again than not. You'll join me one day. But for now this will work." "I love you" I say "I love you too" there's a knock on the front door. He vanishes. I cry even more. I want my rem back!

I open it to see Emerson. He notices my  tear stained face. His eyes well in tears as well. "It's okay. We'll make it through this" he holds me. It's not the same as rems but I have to live with the fact he can't hold me anymore. I love both of them. But rem will always be mine.

I open my eyes and there he stands. He smiled at me. He mouths an 'I love you' I mouth it back. Hes gone again. Just like that. I don't know how im going to be able to do this.

A few weeks later.

I moved in with Emerson and Sebastian. They let me have rems room. Everything is the same as it was when it happened. I can't blame him. It's not his fault people don't know how to drive. I sit there. Staring at the floor. Wrapped in rems playboy hoodie. It still smells like him.

I'm contemplating doing something. No ones home. The pills are in the bathroom. Nothing is stopping me. I walk into the bathroom and pull the pills out if the cabinet. I open them and pour out a handful. Before I can take them Sebastian runs into the room. He swats them out of my hand.

"Y/n What were you thinking!!! We already lost rem!! I can't afford to lose you too!!" He screams at me. I just cried into his jacket. "I can't do this anymore seb!! I can't be without him!! I miss him!! I love him!!!!" The tears keep coming out. "I thought you were with Emerson. I thought that was helping." He says holding me tight.

"I don't love him like I do rem! I still do but he's not remington!!!" I sob. I didn't even notice Emerson was outside the door. I felt bad but i was being honest. No one can replace Remington. "Please Seb just let me be with him!!" "No y/n! I'm not letting you kill yourself. Your the only piece of him i have left. I can't lose you. Neither of us can"

I didn't know what to do at this point. I just cried more. I got up and hugged em. I apologized. He understood where I was coming from. He led me to his room. He laid me down and followed after. I rested my head on his chest. I tried to calm down.

  I was almost asleep when I saw him. He stood in front of me. "Don't hurt yourself just to be with me. I told you we could be like this. He motioned towards us. "Look at who your with right now" I look at the sleeping Emerson "He loves you just as much as i do. He can make you just as happy. Just remember me. That's all I ask for. He blew me a kiss and vanished. I just snuggled into ems chest more. Hes not rem but I love him just as much as I love Remington. I just have to face the facts. Hes now my vampire Angel boy.

By for now my loves💟