Ryes POV
Me and Andy were trying to make being friends work but it was hard. Because I was in love with him and all I want is to be with him, to hold him and kiss him!!! But every time I would flirt he would shut it down... I tried to be normal around him I really did!!! IT WAS SO HARD... like yesterday we were all watching a movie and since Andy hasn't been sleeping well lately he fell asleep beside me and all I wanted to do was hold him tight but I couldn't...it would hurt Andy and I've done enough of that.
RyeI sat down the notebook down. Me and Andy both are doing them now. It felt good to let out some emotions out. I looked at the clock to see it was 3:00 a.m. I sighed I should probably go to sleep. I went to lay down when I heard Andy screaming. It wasn't like usual he was screaming so load I thought he had to be dying. I ran out of the room to see Andy still asleep the other boys trying to get him to wake up. I climbed in bed with him rapping my arms around him.
" shhhh it's okay" I said holding him tighter then ever" it's just dream" I felt him start crying I knew he mush be awake. I held onto him a little longer tell he stopped crying.
" I'm sorry" Andy said whipping the tears from his eyes
" don't be sorry" the boys said
I just looked at him his eyes were really blue this dream hurt him a lot.
The other boys went to bed. I went to my room and grabbed my pillow and came back to Andy's room" what are you doing" he said looking into my eyes
" I'm gonna seat in here with you tell you fall asleep" I said
" fine but your sleeping on the couch" he said then turned to face the wall.
I tossed and turned for a while before Andy said" oh my God just get over here" I grabbed my pillow and climbed into bed with him. For along while we just stared at each other.
" why did you sleep with her" he asked I looked into his eyes
" is that what your dream was about" I asked he just nodded
" Andy that night was the biggest mistake of my life and if I could do over 1,000 times over again 500 times I would never have slept with her" I said his face got angry
" and the other 500 times" he snapped and I smiled
" the other 500 times I would have slept with you not her" I said I could see his face go extremely red even with it being so dark in here
" oh" he finally said
" but you never answered the question... why did you sleep with her" he said I wanted to avoid answering this as long as I possibly could.
" Andy it's almost 4:00 a.m. how about we talk about this another time" I said he just nodded then he fell asleep I just laid there looking at him.
Maybe I'm bi or maybe I'm gay. It doesn't matter anymore all I know is I love him and I ruined any chances of ever having him and that killed me more then anyone will ever know. If I didn't know a hundred percent that he would end everything if I ended my life I would already be in the dirt.
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The confession
FanfictionAndy confesses that he has feeling for Rye but Rye rejects his feelings and starts pushing Andy away hurt Andy more then he know and all the while he actually does like Andy his just scared to admit his gay. Does the truth come out or will Rye lose...