30 Day Writing Challenge // Ryllon [PART THREE]

Day 4: Love

I nervously tap my foot against the carpet as I reread the caption I wrote. 

'Today I've decided to make a big decision. I've decided to not only come out as gay, but I've decided to come out with the relationship I've kept hidden for years. Ryan and I have been married for 5 years as of today. Before posting this, absolutely no one knows except my family. No one in Panic! knows, no one in The Young Veins, no one in Brobecks, no other friends, no one. No one knows until now. It was our choice to keep it a secret, partially because we didn't want fans to like the other just because we are married, but I've decided enough is enough and we can't keep it a secret forever. I love him and he loves me. He is the love of my life and I hope everyone respects our relationship, because all that matters to me is that he is okay and happy. Thank you. -DJW'

I take a deep breath and press share. My heart is pounding. It posts and I look at the photos once more. The first one is of Ryan and I at home back in 2013, him asleep with his head on my chest. The second is me kissing his cheek while in bed, and the third is us in 2009 before we even got married. No one knew, but I do think that Spencer was suspicious. I guess I've mentioned him too many times.

I turn my phone off and look at Ryan. I shake him gently. He had a panic attack last night because he essentially decided that I don't want anyone to know that he's married to me and I'm ashamed of him, so I came out. I came out simply on twitter earlier, saying 'Yes, I'm gay. No, that doesn't change anything (except for the gay ships I'm about to be put in)'. Lots of fans claimed I was hacked, but I talked about it on my Instagram story, confirming that I said it by myself and I really am gay, then mentioned that I've been in a relationship for a long time. 

"Baby, wake up," I say softly, shaking Ryan more. He makes a small noise. I smile at him. He's adorable. "I think you should check Instagram," I say. He sits up, tiredly rubbing his eyes. 

"What?" He asks. I kiss him on the cheek. He looks at me in confusion and I just smile. He reaches for his phone, unlocks it, and opens Instagram. He's getting tagged in several photos, but I have him go to my account. He freezes when he realizes that I had posted a photo of us. 

"Wait..."

"I love you, and I kept it secret because I didn't know when you wanted to tell everyone. I didn't just do this to make you happy, I did it to make us happier," I explain, and he looks at me with guilt in his eyes. I smile, leaning forward. We kiss sweetly, then pull away. He smiles back at me and likes the photo. 

"Well, now I can change my last name on here and follow you," Ryan says, and I laugh and watch him do so. "I love you," he tells me.

"I love you too." 

I get a notification that Brendon liked the photo, so I tense a bit and stand up. Not even 30 seconds pass and there's a knock on the door. I walk over and open it, seeing a very confused and shocked Brendon. He holds up his phone, revealing my post.

"What?" 

I look over my shoulder at Ryan, and he smiles nervously.

"Hi, Brendon," he says, and I let Brendon step inside. 

"Wait, you two are actually... married?" 

Ryan nods, holding up his hand to reveal his ring. Brendon stares in shock, and soon Spencer and Zack appear. They see me and Brendon, and when they walk in, they see a shirtless Ryan in bed. 

"So, you're really together?" Zack asks. I nod.

"Well," Spencer starts, and I look at him, "if you two are happy, then we're happy."

I smile and walk over to Ryan, kissing his head before holding him.

"I'm pretty happy right now," I mumble, and Ryan chuckles. We really are happy.