(COMPLETED)MR. SERIES 10: Mr. Rockstar

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Marco immediately dipped in the Jacuzzi as he held my hands to guide me get in with him.

"Marco...ang init na pala nito, baka kanina pa nila ini-on."

"Yeah, should be...common' just dip your body and it'll adjust to the water temperature in a few." Habang ang mga mata niya ay napakasimpleng nakangiti sa akin. Ito talaga ang gustong-gusto ko sa kanya. His eyes are always very powerful. It can always burn me with ogling feelings. Ngayon na unti-unti na kaming nagkakakilala hindi ko alam bakit pero feeling ko mas lalo ko siyang nagugustohan. I get to know the Marco the audience and mass is not able to see in him. The genuine side of the rockstar Marco. Masasabi mo talagang, he got a magnificent soul.

"Marco...uhmmm I got a question..." I rested my eyes to his.

"...ask away."

"uhmmm... ano kasi. Ako kasi yung klasi ng babaeng hindi pa etchos. I am always straight forward, hindi ako Maria Clara. I always give in to what my heart desires. That is why I came here in the US and left my whole life in the Philippines. Uhmmmm, I just wanna know, I dont wanna ask you if you're starting to fall for me because I know it is still very early... but, are you at least starting to like me...?"

Nakatitig lang siya sa akin, as if he was struck with my question.

"Trina, ayokong mag expect ka. I dont think my heart is ready to gamble and risk again. Look, getting into any commitment again is the last thing I wanna do. The last time I checked, my heart is still broken and wrecked."

Ouch! And I was left dumbfounded. Ano ba kasing ine-expect ko diba? I felt my breathe exasperatingly changing phase. However, I managed to meet his gaze even if it's slowly killing me. I dont know where I got the courage to smile at him as if his words didn't cut.

"Well, thanks for the honest answer. I guess... I g-guess, I am willing to be with you along the way as you get your heart heal and if I'll be lucky enough then maybe...I can help you get your heart beat again."

"I do not want to get you hopeful because I know I am in a dire and precarious stage momentarily. Alam kong matagal na panahon pa Trina bago ko gugustuhing magmahal ulit. I mean, we can be FUBU, but that's all I can offer."

Shit ano raw?! FUBU as in fucking buddy lang? Kaya ko ba iyon? Like no feelings involve right?

"Ahhhh....o-okay...so n-no f-feelings i-involve...?"

"Yes Trina. Exactly." Then he gave me a very seductive smile. Hindi ko alam kong ano ang nangyayari sa akin. I know this set up is very unfair. I know this is too much for me. Alam ko ako ang talo kahit hindi pa nga nag sisimula. I know theres no way I can handle this well. Pero tumango pa rin ako. Then he hugged meand his hands caressing my back... Then and there, all my hesitations flew away. Shit! Am I starting to fall for him?

This is really sickening. Hindi na ito maganda. Saan ko kaya pupulutin ang sarili ko pagkatapos ng lahat ng ito? I haven't really experienced a real heartbreak yet.

Bigla niya akong hinarap. Our faces are so close to each other. Ewan! Bahala na! Not that I wanna make myself believe in lies pero mali ba na hayaan ko ang sarili ko na maging masaya kahit sa maling set up pa? Mali bang sumugal? Diba sugal naman ang pag ibig...? oh pag ibig na nga ba itong nararamdaman ko? Shall I start guarding my heart even when I know how vulnerable I am to this guy...?

He slowly moved his face nearer and nearer to me hanggat sa maglapat ang mga labi namin. There he goes again. All his gestures are envading my heart like crazy. Napakapit nalang ako sa balikat niya when I felt him inserted his tongue and dance with mine. I closed my eyes and sighed in my mind. I know I am already defeated even before we are starting...

Bahala na si Batman. I will go with the flow... I will let my self enjoy and stop all the worries. Mamaya ko nang isipin ang lahat ng iyon pag andoon na. Ngayon, I will savor and relish every moment. Everything he has to give.