Words just can't explain how I feel. I'm so exhausted, I can tell that it's real. I play scences in my head, how I wish it to be. I play with words, as I wish have been said. I have endless " what ifs" before I go to bed. You think that's impossible think again. I sleep none but awake always waiting for the next day. Imagining that all would be ok. And I know it's not and never will. I think of people I miss and the ones I hate and wonder if these thought would ever go away. Nobody notice my tears, my sadness, my pain. But all notice my mistakes. I wish I could explain my feelings for you but all I say is "I'm fine". I wonder who noticed I'm not ok. Who saw the story in my eye. Did you walk away or did you just stop and think? My feelings go way deep and I don't know what is worst : feeling empty or sad.
