Unloved the Story of My Life

Chapter 6

CPOV)

After leaving that disrespectful waste of space I went to my studio painting all ways relaxed my mind. the problem is that I don't have a clue what to paint. I sit here and think but all my thoughts are only about her. Fucking bitch. I have no idea what to do now. Maybe Marcus was right can't fight fate. I say fuck it I will try to get to know her, be nice to her, tell her my story, but I will not apologize for my attitude or behavior towards her. She just gets under my skin and I hate that I hate feeling vulnerable,that is a weakness. I can not show weakness I already have no gifts so the image I made for my self have no weaknesses. I am suppose to be feared how can I do that when she will have my wrapped around her fingers. I don't think so.

I leave my studio and go to throne room a trail is about to start, maybe I will destroy someone today. That is what I needed death. A means to an end. Two nomads was destroyed and I felt better. we talked about the fate of the Cullen's Aro decided to wait till after we changed her before they came, because on might be a smart ass and accuse us of the same thing letting a human live with the knowledge for our kind I agreed of course maybe I can prolong her change and get to know her, and about her. I went to my study to catch up some work. Hoping that it might help get my mind off her, the visions of her naked withering under me moaning my name was brought to the front of my mind. Another fucking hard on just great, I not going to act on that I figured if I"m to try I might as well being faithful. I haven't been monogamous since my human life this will be a challenge for me.

Dinner arrived and we fed Aro asked he how was Isabella doing. I told him about the incident today about the yelling and lamp throwing. He looked amused and stated she was perfect match for me. He laughed and walked away before he left he gave a word of advice as he called it if I give her a chance I will find out whats missing from my life and be made whole. I can try to do that I'm just worried that if I put to much trust in her would she leave me or cheat, misuse my trust. Marcus told me she won't do that to me. when she loves she loves deeply. I thought about the first time she came here to save that boy even through he left her. Maybe I would be really loved. I going to find out if she hungry maybe grab a sandwich or something in a container so we could go the gardens and actually talk.

I made it to her room I knocked no answer I knocked again still no answer I opened the door to find the room a mess the bed covers where on the floor in a pile, her scent is about an hour old. I figured she must of went to the library she wasn't there either I wonder where she went. I thought back on today and the events that accord. I hope I didn't run her off see just when I decided to try and make things right she leaves, ow could she get passed a castle full of vampires without anyone hearing her. Unless she went during feeding if she did she is pretty cleaver of a human. I go to Gianna since she sits at the front door, but she said she haven't seen her since lunch. The kitchen why I didn't think to look there no sign of her either now I panic.

"Alex" I yelled he was beside me in a matter of seconds.

"Yes Master Caius"

"Have you seen the human Isabella"

"No Master I haven't seen her since earlier I escorted her back to the room she said she wanted to lay down she didn't feel good." I dismissed him I wonder where could she be, The garden is the last place I will look before I give up. I found her on a bench at the pond sleeping curled into a ball, I picked her up and brought her to my room and put her to bed she really needs to change cloths tomorrow I wonder why she hasn't touched wore anything in the closet did she even look.

Watching her sleep was fascinating she talks in her sleep mostly about me, even whens shes sleep she thinks about me, it's nice to know I'm not the only one. maybe this will work after all. I watched her sleep all night, she tossed and turned and I counted my name off her lips a hundred and seventy six time. She jumped up startled and asked

"How did I get here and whose bed is this" she asked

"I brought you here I found you sleep in the garden and you are in my bed might I ask what happened to your room" I asked her.

"NO, no,no,no I can't be in your room in your in bed I'm sorry I went to sleep in the garden I stripped he bed in the room because I didn't know it was your wife's room I didn't want to get in trouble for being in her room or her bed." she explained I looked at her confused How could she know about Athenodora I never mentioned her even through we was to be be divorced I looked at her at told her to get up we going to have breakfast and then go talk.

After she ate we walked to the garden and sat on the bench

"you mentioned my wife, yes I am married, but she is no longer here she left with her lover his name is Demetri I caught them in a very compromising position and they both left I filed for divorce the same day you arrived as for the bed and the room everything in there belongs to you if you even noticed every single piece of clothing still has the price tags on them. We knew you wouldn't be leaving here if you arrived so Aro had everything in place before you arrived"

"How do you kn ow my size"

"When you been around as long as we have we can just look at somebody and tell what size shoe they wear the same with clothes."

"Do you know when I will be changed?"

"I don't know we was trying to make sure you was physically capable handling the change so as soon as you are healthy I guess" I told her I asked her about herself ans she told told me whole life story. Her dad a police Chef from the town she is from, how she had to raise her mother, moving back with her dad, meeting the Cullen's how she figured out what they was, but what shocked me the most was when she told me her friends were werewolves.

I walked back to her room with her everything was back where it goes. She asked to be excused to take a shower. I sat there listening to water run and images for her in the shower went through my mind, water running down the middle of her back, and in between her breast, her hand roaming over body as she wash her self.

I want to wash her.