Surrender.

The Healing Process.

After having my heart torn out of my chest yesterday. It was time to let go and heal. It's not that I love him anymore. It was the fact of how easily he moved on and the happiness he felt as I suffered for 4 years. More tears streamed from my eyes as Larry kissed them away. He let me have this moment he felt I needed it in order to completely give myself to him. I never met a man so patient for which I am eternally grateful. After my break down I didn't have the strength to do anything. I laid there eyes red and swollen my voice damn near gone I had a concert tomorrow. My emotions were everywhere forcing me to face them. I closed my eyes wishing them away but they were there waiting for closure. Larry went to the kitchen and made some breakfast.
"Eat Belle You need you strength."
I could see it in his eyes that the pain I was feeling was crushing him. I forced myself to eat to ease his mind. He ran his fingers through my curly hair. I felt the sorrow melt away with his touch.
He kissed my lips passionately as if he was removing the hurt from my soul and replacing it with joy.
He held my body close to his the warmth radiating from him stopped my tears from flowing.
"Let me take the hurt away"
I looked at him my eyes begging for him to relieve me.
"Please take it away. I don't wanba hurt like this no more" My voice was  weak and shaking.
He undressed me entering me slowly. He stared deep into my eyes stroking my cheek. "You mine now. The only pain you will ever feel from me is when I'm pleasuring your masochistic need." He went a little deeper. " Let me love you bébé give you everything you need."
He went more deeper. " You no need to be afraid of love no more because with me you have found an unconditional love." He went even more deeper. "Let it go just Surrender to me."
He went so deep he was touching my soul. I let my tear filled moans resonate throughout the room. The deeper he went the more I let go.
"I love you bébé I can show you things you never seen before just let me." He went deeper penetrating through the wall around my heart. He continued to make love to my spirit. I felt my orgasm brewing but this one felt different. It felt like when it came it was going to shatter anything that stood in the way of me giving myself completely to him. I closed my eyes and let go giving him full control. Once I released I felt the weight lifted off my chest everything I carried on my shoulders gone. I laid there breathing like it was the first time. I was seeing through new eyes. A feeling of serenity swept across me leaving me completely satisfied.
"Thank you." I whispered.
"Anytime my Angel."
He smiled kissing me deeply.
"I love you my king." I said as I laid my head against his chest.
"I love you even more my queen." He said stroking my hair.
The sun had retired in the sky and the stars lit the sky. I found I didn't need the darkness any more because he was my peace. I closed my eyes and feel asleep with a smile on my face knowing that my heart as well as the rest of me was protected.