Surrender.

Reborn

Larry stared into my eyes as the emotion flooded out in the form of tears.
"Why you cry bébé did I hurt you? Did I do something wrong?"
I lifted my hand and touched my tear soaked face. Did I say what I think I just said. He kissed my tear stained face.  As hard as I tried I couldn't stop the emotion pouring from my soul. It's been pinned up so long the anger the hurt the sadness the loneliness. It was being released and replaced by things I never thought I would feel again. My heart didn't feel the fortress of ice that surrounded it in order to keep it from shattering. I laid there watching this beautiful transformation unfold with in myself.
"Bébé talk to me." Larry said with a look of concern upon his face.
"Why you crying do I do something wrong?"
"No."
"Then why you sad?"
"These are not tears of sadness."
"Then why you cry."
Never one that was good at expressing myself but knowing I needed to give him an explanation I took a deep breath and gave it my best shot.
"It's tears of release and new birth."
He gasps "You pregnant?"
"No silly." I laughed.
"It's me letting go of the past for something beautiful that I have found in you. It's the wall around my heart breaking down to let you in. It's light flooding back into the dark crevices of my mind"
"I thought you like the darkness."
"I do but you have to understand no one can live in complete darkness my love there can be no darkness without light and vice versa. I needed you Larry Bourgeois where have you been all my life. Why did I have to experience so much heartbreak before you."
He laid back with his hands behind his head in deep thought.
"I can ask you the same maybe us had to crash and burn before us find each other. I love you like I love no other. I need you. I can feel you not just physically but spiritually. Us souls are entwined with one another. I feel like without you I might go crazy."
"Awee boo beautifully said I feel the same way."
His words touched me in places that I closed off 4 years ago. I felt the same way I just didn't know how to put the words together to explain. I understood now what he meant by he wanted to make my mind cum. The mental orgasm he was giving me was supernatural one that I wanted to have over and over again. He pulled my body close to his the warmth from his body transmitting to mine.
"You are so beautiful Tee-Tee never let anyone make you feel less than. You have so much to offer the world. No let nobody take you smile away again Bebe."
I smiled for the first time with joy in my heart.
"You have such a beautiful smile"  he said kissing my forehead.
This has been one of the most amazingly eye opening nights of my life. This was more than sex it was the cleansing of the negativity that held me captive for so long. It was like being reborn all over again seeing the world through new eyes. I could never repay him the debt I felt owed to him for setting this song bird free.