Lost. Nastu x reader fairy tail

Eight

-y/n pov-

After lisanna's death I couldn't handle being at the guild. There were too many painful memories. I went home and stayed there miserably for 5 days, riddled in grief.

Gray had come to check up on me the 3rd day and he ended up staying the night. The two of us sulked together for the next 2 days, equally as heartbroken and both ended up pigging out on ice cream and chocolate until we both decided enough was enough. When we made it back to the guild Natsu and happy were nowhere to be seen. Luna was concerned about happy, I can tell she likes him however both Natsu and Happy were to dense to notice emotions.

The days turned into a weeks that Natsu and Happy were nowhere to be seen, they left without a word and no one knew where they went. I decided to look for them, two weeks is too long, I missed him, and I needed to make sure he was okay.

Luna and I struggled to find their home, searching far and wide for it to no advance. I ended up sniffing him out as strange as that sounds, being a dragon slayer sure does have its perks sometimes, after finally discovering their small home we walked up to the door, knocked on it and waited, praying that they were okay.

"(Y-y/n)?" a croaky voice called out from inside. He heard the bells on the anklet he gave me for Christmas and recognised me instantly. Ever since he gave me that anklet I haven't taken it off, you can hear me coming from anywhere.

"Can I come in?" I ask softly through the door.
He grunts out a 'yeah' so I take a deep breathe and slowly open the door.

He refused to look at me when I walked in, his eyes trained to the floor. The house smelt stale as if no one had been outside for days, no windows or doors opened. The pain noticeably spread on his face, almost twisting into guilt.
I didn't know how to act, but I wanted to help.

"W-where's happy gone?" I ask curiously breaking the uncomfortable silence. 
"Shops" he replies bluntly, shutting down my conversation started immediately.
I sigh quietly, desperately trying to think of something else to speak about to lighten the mood.
"I'll go find him" Luna says quickly and flies outside, leaving me alone.

The silence became sickening very quickly.

I walked over and looked down at his exhausted form, he was hunched over on the floor resting against the wall, still refusing to look at me. I could practically feel the aura of sadness radiating off him, I hated it. I wanted to help but didn't know how, there's not really all that much you can do to help someone grieving.

"You've seen better days" I joke quietly, trying to lighten the mood. 
Instead of responding once again he just nods silently, I sigh and sit next to him, leaning against the wall.
He flinched slightly as I sat down, surprised by the closeness.

"N-nats-" I began but was cut off by him.
"I don't want to admit it" He states outright.
I look down, fixing my eyes on the ground immediately shutting up.
If he wanted to speak I would absolutely sit here and listen.

"No one does" I say back quietly. He raises his eyes from the ground to face me for the first time since I had walked inside.
I gaze up at his sunken eyes as he sniffs back tears, trying to keep them back.
He doesn't appear to have slept in a while, and he clearly hasn't showered either. His pink hair a mess, knotted and wild.

"Why her?" He asked me sadly, the tears he had been trying to keep at bay forming in his bloodshot onyx eyes. I sigh heavily, trying to think of the right things to say.
"I don't know, it shouldn't have happened at all." I say, sadness riddling my voice.
He keeps his eyes fixed on my own as I speak, searching for any signs of hope.
"You were right, we should have gone with her."  I say sadly, taking my eyes off him to avoid the stare and look back to the floor.