Silently Falling

Chapter 19

Rose

For a few seconds, I stood there not knowing what to do. Part of me felt mad at the fact that he had simply left whilst I was trying to say something, the next part of me was however something I'd tried my best to bury deep inside of me, which was threatening to break free and consume me as it had at my lowest.

I slowly took a few steps to my right towards the low brick walls of the open corridors and sat down. I planted my palms against the wall on either side of my thighs as my head hung from my slumped shoulders and sighed.

I couldn't let my past insecurities and self-loathing get me again. I was stronger than that.

The way Rhyan acts has nothing to do with me. It's nothing I need to take personally or worry about. I already knew that the guy has a few loose screws in his head and this is just the way he acts. Not to mention that I should've already been used to the shifts in his behaviour by now.

But could someone really get used to that?

I tried my best to clear my mind from the various thoughts that were currently swarming inside my head and reluctantly got up. I decided to head back to the canteen to get the drink that Victoria had asked for, hoping that it'd keep me distracted.

On my way back, I couldn't help but compare Rhyan's behaviour today with the way that he had reacted when Ivan had tried to introduce us on the day that we'd first met. He hadn't bothered being introduced to me just like how he didn't care enough to let me finish what I was trying to say before walking away.

I scoffed at myself. So nothing had changed since then huh? He was a prick then and he was a prick now and I was still a nobody that he couldn't care less about.

I couldn't help but laugh at myself in self-mockery as I already felt a headache begin to form as I pushed the money into the vending machine and bent down to grab two cans of diet coke as I thought that I'd get myself one too.

I closed my eyes for a second and sighed. I felt tired of having to deal with people and contemplated ditching the last period for the day and just going home.

I mean, it's just one more period. What more could happen? I thought to myself as I straightened up and turned around to head back to my friends.

"Heyy Rose!"

You couldn't even imagine how hard I cringed when I heard that annoying high-pitched voice.

What more could happen??? Apparently, a lot could.

Just please, why? Why do I even let myself say things like that? I wanted to slap myself across the face but was afraid people around me would think that I'd gone insane.

Ashley's heels clicked against the marbled canteen floors as she made her way towards me. I was drowning in self-pity so much that I didn't even get surprised by the fact that she was wearing six-inch heels to school.

I looked towards the ceiling and inaudibly whispered, "God, please. I get it that you hate me, but enough for today."

"Helloo," A palm with perfectly manicured fingers waved wildly in front of my face to catch my attention.

"Ashley." I acknowledged her and she let her hand fall as she smiled brightly.

"Heyy, I just wanted to ask you if you were doing good?"

"Uh, yea? Why wouldn't I be?" I replied nonchalantly with a shrug not knowing why was she so interested all of a sudden.

"Well," she continued pushing her blond hair behind both of her ears, "I was passing by and saw that you were looking kinda down, so I thought I should check on you." Gone was her earlier smile and her facial expression turned to that of a concerned friend with furrowed eyebrows and a small pout on her lips.