[tell them i was here and that i lived. i risked so much and lost so many friends, just don't let them forget me. please.]
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•peter parker × oc•
•avengers: end game•
•book three•
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DID YOU HURT?
WHEN YOU LEFT AND I STAYED?
DID YOU CRY?
WHEN YOU AND I WERE RIPPED APART?
DID YOU FALL TO YOUR KNEES AND LET THE SADNESS TEAR INTO YOU, LET IT RIP AT YOUR HEART AND FEEL IT SEEP INTO YOUR VERY BONES?
I DID.
IT TORE ME DOWN AND RIPPED MY HEART IN HALF AND IT'S NEVER BEEN WHOLE AGAIN SINCE.
DID YOU LOVE ME?
BECAUSE I LOVED YOU.
I'M PRETTY SURE I STILL DO.
I CAN'T SAY IF IT'S TRUE OR NOT BUT I MUST'VE LOVED YOU FROM THE VERY MOMENT I MET YOU.
HOW ELSE COULD SOMEONE LOVE ANOTHER AS MUCH AS I LOVED YOU?
DO YOU DREAM OF ME?
CAN YOU EVEN DREAM?
BECAUSE I DREAM OF YOU, EVEN THOUGH YOU'RE GONE.
WHEN YOU LEFT, I WISHED ON EVERY STAR I EVER SAW THAT YOU'D COME BACK, FELT YOUR HANDS IN MY HAIR EVERY TIME THE WIND PICKED UP, SAW YOUR FACE IN EVERY CROWD I EVER WALKED THROUGH.
I STILL DO, JUST I DON'T HAVE HIGH EXPECTATIONS ANYMORE.
I STILL LOOK FOR YOU, EVEN THOUGH I KNOW YOU'RE GONE.
DO YOU STILL LOOK FOR ME?
I BET YOU DON'T BECAUSE IF I WERE YOU, I'D BE TOO BUSY MEETING ALL THE OTHER GONE PEOPLE AND NOT THINKING OF MY ANNOYING SELF.
ARE THERE PEOPLE THERE WITH YOU?
THERE'S ALWAYS CROWDS OF PEOPLE SURROUNDING ME BUT THAT DOESN'T CHANGE THE HOLE IN MY HEART AND THE MISSING PIECES OF ME, PIECES THAT YOU TOOK WITH YOU.
YOU STOLE A PART OF ME AND YOU TOOK IT WITH YOU, TO WHEREVER YOU ARE. I LOST A PIECE OF MYSELF IN YOU AND I THINK YOU DID TOO.
I THINK SOME PART OF ME WILL ALWAYS BE WITH YOU ON THAT SCHOOL ROOFTOP THE NIGHT WHERE IT ALL STARTED, WANTING TO SPEAK BUT NOT DARING TO SAY THE SCARY TRUTH.
I WANT THAT PIECE BACK, THE PART OF ME THAT YOU STOLE BUT I ALSO WANT YOU TO KEEP IT, TO REMEMBER ME. IF YOU WANT TO, THAT IS.
DID YOU MOVE ON?
WE PROMISED WE WOULD LAST FOREVER BUT THEN FOREVER FELL SHORT AND NOW HERE I AM, FLOATING ON THE EDGE BETWEEN NOWHERE AND EVERYWHERE.
DID YOU FIND A NEW FOREVER?
IT'S FINE IF YOU DID, BECAUSE I WOULDN'T WANT YOU TO STAY HUNG UP ON ME LIKE I AM WITH YOU.
IT BROKE ME WHEN YOU LEFT, COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY SHREDDED MY ENTIRE BEING AND I WOULD NEVER WANT YOU TO GO THROUGH THAT.
THE LAST TIME I SAW YOU, YOU WERE CRYING AND PANICKED BUT TO BE FAIR, THE CIRCUMSTANCES KINDA CALL FOR IT.
I HOPE YOU'RE DOING BETTER NOW, I REALLY DO.
EVEN IF I CAN'T TOUCH YOU OR HOLD YOU AGAIN, I HOPE SOMEONE ELSE CAN AND YOU LOVE THEM MORE THAN YOU LOVED ME.
YOU DESERVE IT, EVEN IF THE THOUGHT OF YOU TWO WILL RIP MY HEART IN HALF ON THE OFF CHANCE I THINK OF IT.
I HOPE YOU FIND WHO YOU'RE LOOKING FOR, AND I HOPE THEY'RE BETTER THAN ME.
I HOPE THEY'RE GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU, BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH YOU SAID I ALWAYS WAS, I ALWAYS HAD DOUBTS.
AND I KNOW IT'S POINTLESS NOW BUT I DO LOVE YOU, I REALLY DO.
I HOPE YOU'RE DOING WELL AND THAT YOU FORGOT ABOUT ME.
