"Mum listen I can't take it anymore, staying here is suffocating me gradually I have no friends here, and even my friend back there I left with no proper good bye. Its like-" I took a deep breath "just let me go back I am already no use here" I cut my own words I decided that I don't want to open up and tell her about my feelings because I know the reply.
"Do whatever you want Rena, you never listen anyways." Mum replied with a sigh with her eyes fixed on me then shifted them to her cell phone's screen.
But I do really listen. I listen to every word and letter addressed to me and maybe that was the problem. I cared much.
That was 8 months ago before I came back home to live alone as I always did. I tried to adapt to living with my parents abroad but I just didn't fit there. I was already battling with myself in my own depression.
I am tired. When I am alone sitting with my own self thinking if I am really worth living or not; my brain hurts a lot.
Hann Rena, are you even living?
YOU ARE READING
Mesmerizing
FanfictionI forgot the meaning of living when I needed it the most. I wish I could know myself.I wish I could stop hurting myself. Shredded into pieces, I am devastated. Just take my hands and save me.
