Mesmerizing

27: Days

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Hoseok never answered me, he just went ' I can't help you in this, I can't reply, I made a promise' he sighed

'Hoseok, I am Rena remember? You are my only best friend' I argued

'No, dont pull that card rena, you know how much I love you but I will be shot dead if i opened my mouth' he laughed a bit

'What do I do then?'

'Wait, its worth every second trust me'

We hung up and I went straight to sleep.

Worth it? Should I have my hopes back?

Everything in my life wasn't falling over my head, it was actually going well, I mean I overcame my insecurities, I can really walk in the streets with no fear of the crowd, sometimes I feel that I am chocking but it's fine as long as it last for a short time.

However, I felt lonely even though Hoseok called everyday, even though my job was basically revolving around the idea of meeting new people everyday. It felt cold even ofln the warm days, it felt as if I am growing a year each second.

Every day I looked at people's faces, they were full of stories sad or happy but they were constantly talking. It made me feel alive, my coworkers as well were really chatterboxes but I barely interfered.

'I can't understand why would he cheat on me?'

' I dont think i will have any dessert, I gained enough weight'

'I came here for the cake I need the calories'

'That's actually a nice place'

Those were the kind of things I heard everyday. I always listened and I always made a conversation in my head. I didnt have the courage to approach my coworkers and 'hey lets be friends' that was hard for me I was depressed that I was lonely but its fine. That was enough progress I made for the past couple of months. 

I kept texting Taehyung and still I got no response. I kind of started to be down a bit again but no I won't take no for an answer. I won't give up on him. Maybe if I send him a letter he will be interested. He likes my letters, doesn't he?

So I told myself after I return back from work, I am going to put all my heart and deliver the words I truly want to tell him. 

I arrived at the café for my night shift, it started around 4 pm till 9 pm. I went to the toilet to get changed in my uniform. I wore the wide legged highwasted grey pants and tucked the white shirt in it. Rolling my sleeves a bit and placed my clothes in the locker room.

There weren't any customers which I wondered why? This place is usually half full.

I approached Tina and asked "It's quiet today"

She nodded excitedly "ohh, it's your first time experiencing this with us,  well there is this beautiful young business man who usually books this place once a month you know to enjoy the quiet area here and I dont know exactly why but he does anyways but he was away actually for the past two months and here he is the one coming through the door" she replied and raised her eyebrows and her eyes were smiling.

I shifted my eyes to take a look, yes he was good looking but not as Taehyung.

She pushed me over to go give him the menu "You never met him, so go give it a shot" she giggled and ran inside the kitchen. 

I walked steadily towards him and placed the menu " Good evening sir " I said with a professional smile and walked away until he was ready to order.

"So you are the new girl" he smiled actually he was kind of handsome in a way

" Yes I am, what would you like to have?"

And here comes the cheesest line of all "I don't know you tell me" he said

"Well,  I suggest the special coffee" I replied

"And for the dessert"

"Well you can have the honey cheese cake"

"Well I will trust your taste in food and willingly have them"

"Well those aren't my recommendations, those are the ones best selling in here" I smiled and turned

"Hey miss, what's your name?"

Its right there on the name tag. Sigh

"Rena" I replied and went away.

Tina kept asking me how did it go, "well he is a flirt but he takes everything easy"

"You call that flirting?" I replied

"He is a good guy Ren"

"Good? I doubt,  but weird?  ofcourse. Who rents a whole café for a cup of coffee and a piece of cheescake?"

"Let the manager hear you"she giggled and I smiled

"No but really who does that?"

"Maybe he has no one to bring, maybe he is lonely" she said and that made me wonder. I was curious now.

I went to serve him his food " Bon petite" I smiled

"Rena" he called

"Yes" I looked at him

"Nice to meet you" he simply said and stared out of the window next to him. I left

He was that kind of a person to leave an impression and makes you wonder. Why? Just why? I kept thinking until i arrived home and took a shower then sat on my desk.

"
Dearst Taehyung,

It has been about 2 months since I last saw you. Taehyung I dont understand for how long you will keep ignoring me like that, I don't care about anything except you.  I dont mind anything, i dont care if they are evil, rich, poor, kind i dont care about anything. I just want you. Don't you think its a bit unfair leaving me like that? Dont you think that I have wasted enough time? And no I am not talking about the day I left years ago I am talking about the dau I saw you and never actually said hi or hello, I am talking about the time I saw you reading my favourite book, eating something i really liked, and being friends with the person I only had as a real friend, the many chances i wasted being shy to talk when I really wanted to know you. I wont wait for the 2 months to become 2 years, I won't wait until I hear 'Tae has a girlfriend', I won't wait until you come to me. You have pissed me off already. If you dont come here,  I am coming to you. "

Noo, I am not sending this, I threw it away.  If i sent this he will either disappear or he will come to see me for a short while then run and hide again so it has to be a surprise. A really good crafted surprise. I need help.

I need help and I dont want to rush things or let them sleep so I need to rest.

I texted Tae again telling him how the day went and closed my eyes.

Come back.