Mesmerizing

11: Blame

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Taehyung

"There is Jungkook" she said with her sweet voice pointing at Jungkook who came running to hold the bags from her.

"So we leave you both together for some hours and you buy the whole supermarket" he smiled looking at her as she said with a sigh "He made us buy all of this" pointing at me

"B-But I am grateful though he paid for it"

"Like he wouldn't" smirked Jungkook and looked at me with an evil laugh.

"Is Hoseok hyung still mad?" I asked as we were placing all the bags in the car they were so many that the three of us had to carry.

"No say thanks to Rena cause she texted him earlier telling him that you are still with her"

"Ohh did you?" I asked with a bothered expression

"hmm" she nodded

We got in the car as Jungkook drove to her house. I was quite the whole ride drowning in my dark thoughts. What annoyed me even more is every single thought, word or even letter that occupies my brain drift to my heart fast making me think of her. I was quite all the ride but that doesn't mean that I wasn't actually watching her, her reflection was on the mirror on my right. I could see her with her sight and fingers glued on her cell phone probably texting Hoseok hyung.

Even when she placed her cell phone back in her pockets and leaned her head on the window she was effortlessly beautiful. How can she suspect for even a second that I liked those girls? I like her not them not anyone else. No one had the audacity to make me cry because they left even if we were just 'Acquaintances' to each other.

Her, she means a lot to me. Forgive me for not having enough courage to say 'Hi lets be friends', forgive me for not being able to run after you in the classroom and insist. Forgive me for having my legs paralyzed when you ran inside. Forgive me for not trying to help when I should have had. And most of all forgive me; forgive me for being me.

Am I allowed to have feelings for you?

The same look she has right now is the same as that look she always had when she looked out of the window in the classroom when we had gaps. I used to stare at her a lot. In a matter of a fact I do until now. She either sat looking at the birds singing or had her sight fully addressed to a book she was reading. About three or four times I see both of us holding the same books. It would bring happiness to my empty dark red world. And most of all when I catch her gazing at me as well. Did she like me too? Or am I just making it up all in my own head?

"Here we are safe and sound see I got much better, well at least there is slight progress" said Jungkook

"Emm, Good" I replied

"Thank you for the stuff and the drive I really appreciate it" said Rena as we went upstairs with her placing the bags in her kitchen.

"What would you like to drink Jungkook?"

"Nothing, don't trouble yourself we should get going anyways, see you" replied Jungkook heading to the main door pulling me from my sleeve. Right after we almost closed the door behind us.

"Taehyung wait!!" said Rena opening the door widely again "Give me your cell phone" and I did as I was told. "Here so you don't catch a cold while running all the way up here"

How can I leave now? I want to sit and talk with her all day. Not to sound cliché but I feel easy around her, I feel calm. I don't feel stressed. I don't feel anger. I want to sit but I thank God she forgot about our deal I wasn't going to tell her anything to be honest. I cheated I know. I only want to help her be happy again. I want her to remember what I am trying to.