Mesmerizing

6: Think

Taehyung:

The moment I saw her, the moment my eyes fell on her again, the war which was inside me cooled down, the storm that unleashed itself against me turned into some faint warm wind. How can this be? How? Ever since I met her in high school she always felt different, beautifully different, I liked her, I did, not just a crush on her, I always drowned thinking of her, drowned in her beautiful cozy warm eyes, drowning in her smooth voice when I got the chance to hear glimpse of it. But how on earth do I like her until now? Can this even be? This is beyond admiration. Do I? Do I perhaps love her?

I never stopped thinking of her, I always wanted to talk to her but I never had the courage to do so, I didn't want to get her involved in my life. My mess. However I never had the power to forget her, I melt when I see her. I always felt jealousy and anger when she was with Hoseok, even though I know he has nothing going on towards her, but still I can't help it. The moment I could see her after 2 years, I see her holding onto Hoseok. It just hurt a lot.

"Rena" I slowly approached her, my feet dragged me towards her after I was boiling from the staring contest she had earlier with Hoseok.

"hmm"

"W-Would you like to have something to drink?" so now I forgot how to speak?

She faintly nodded and I told her to follow me. We entered my office that was almost forever closed. I never go out in the morning; I hate the crowd just like her.

"Someone told me you work from home, if you don't mind my words" she said as she sat down

"He never shut up" I laughed at the thought of Jungkook "I hate the crowd, I hate the day, it is so exposing everyone can see through you" I said

"Then why are you here today?" she asked looking directly in my eyes

"I wanted to be with you" she almost choked "I mean to show you around"

"Oh" it was the only word that left her mouth.

"But when we were together at the super market you protected me, you didn't seem to be stressed about it Tae" she asked tilting her head

"I don't know the meaning of the word Fear when you are next to me" I said and her face didn't turn red it turned more lost

Someone please take me out of this room now!

Maybe

Awkward silence interviewed itself for a while until she spoke thank God she did before I say anything else stupid.

"Who were you talking about?, yesterday" now I wish if I was the one who spoke instead.

"You don't have to answer me" she stood up and was leaving, it appeared that I took so long to answer, it's because I wanted to keep her I don't want her to leave. Unconsciously I held her arm "Where are you going?"

"Leaving" she replied with a plain tone that enraged fire into me. The word I fear the most. I can't take it. I didn't know what happened to me, my eyes blurred and I couldn't breathe.

"Tae" her face softened a lot "I was just going to see what they were doing"

"Taehyung" she said again with a soft voice and confused eyes.

"Don't leave me" I said lowering my head. To m sudden shock she lifted my head back up.

"I won't leave you, why don't we sit down" she said dragging me, giving me a cup of water that was already on the desk. I slowly drank the water and inhaled my breath.

"My parents" I said "They aren't good people, and on the top of it they want to force me to work with them." I replied trying as much as possible not to expose everything just giving her the outer frame.

"But you are working here with the boys" she replied

"They are capable of things Rena, such as destroying me and my life to push me to work with them"

"What else? Speak" she said looking dearly into my eyes, it hurts Rena don't do that to me.

"I am afraid of it"

"You mean them?"

"I am afraid of certain people leaving"

You will leave me once you know the real me.

"Taehyung, I am not the type of person who can actually help in this or give advice, my parents pushed me too to work with them, I just showed them failure in return, I didn't plan to do it of course, I even failed in being stubborn with them. I shut all the doors, even Hoseokii I ran away from everyone. You know what I gained during this process, I lost myself Taehyung, I lost my identity. You should think of yourself first, think about your feelings first. People who really love you will stay no matter what, no matter how long it takes you to come back to your senses." She said calming me down but hurting herself with her own words as well. I wish it could work. I want it to work; it's just that our background isn't the same.

I nodded at her words and the door knocked.

"You two spend a lot of time together these days" smirked Jungkook "Aren't you hungry?"

"We are" she replied "Come Taehyung, Let's go."

Rena, my heart can't do this, you can't make me love you, Don't Rena Don't. I will be the one to burn.

I do.