Mesmerizing

2: Awake

"Rena" he said with a very deep sigh. His voice was always like a beautiful melody I wanted to hear all the time it soothed my soul.

"Can I ask you something?"

I hummed in response.

"Ca-can we be friends?" he shot the words as I was getting out of bed.

"I am not the type of a good friend; you saw how I left Hoseok and ran. I don't even know who am I, I don't want to add that sad vibe to your life, I don't want to give you sadness I don't want you to feel it."

Why am I telling him this, how can I manage to talk to him as if I have known him for years? That offer for friendship where was it years ago Taehyung, where was it? I can't blame him. I never opened my mouth either I should have made it.

"Rena, I- me too, I am not the person you think I am. But I definitely don't want to make the same mistake twice."

My heart ached at the sound of my name from his lips. Why am I forgetting my state with him. Maybe because the warmth in his eyes I can feel it. He is insisting. Say yes Rena. Let people into your miserable life let them help.

I held the tray of food that Jin brought earlier and went out of the room, Taehyung was behind me. I stopped.

"Where is the kitchen, friend?" a soft smile formed on his dim face as he led me to the long hall that led to the kitchen.

"I want more of this, where did Jin put it? he made more I am sure" I said as for real I was still very hungry and the food made it feel like it was made by people who cared or was it made by people who pitted me? I think I will think of this later I want to get enough protein in my body.

"Smart." He took the bowl from my hands and placed it on the counter then started heating the soup and stirring it slowly I sat on the counter next to him. Playing with my legs back and forth, my muscles felt good to move them.

I can't bear my soul being sick but my body getting sick too that was horrible believe me.

He poured the soup in my bowl and put it on the table. I slowly got off the counter and sat to eat again.

"Why bother eating then Rena?" He asked placing his chin on his palm. I knew he would ask this anybody would to be honest. Why do I care then?

"It's not that I don't want to survive, I just forgot how to" I replied.

Hoseok came in the kitchen and sat beside me on the table. "I am sorry, I crossed the line but you are still staying here consider yourself kidnapped" said Hoseok patting my head as I ate my food. I didn't bother to answer. He won't let me.

Taehyung suddenly stood up "where are you going Tae?"

"I will check if Jin hyung already bought her medicine" he went out of the kitchen before Hoseok can answer him. But he knew it already, he saw my medicine right next to him in the room I was in.

"Try making friends here Rena, they are good people" he said

"How much exactly are you planning for me to stay here Hoseok-ah?"

"At least until your fever cools" he said and placed his head on the table facing me.

"When did you come back?"

"8 months ago." I sighed.

"Why didn't you call me?"

"I missed you every day, but I needed time for myself"

"8 months? You needed 8 months for yourself Hann Rena? You even didn't plan to come here it was just coincidence" he sighed

"Hoseok I- I"