Mesmerizing

5: Accepting

Again I entered my room after the long conversation I had with Taehyung accompanied with dinner with the boys and the promise I got myself into. I threw myself on the bed with a loud sigh. I don't want to sleep even though I was supposed to. Damn Hoseok you have been back in my life for about 3 days and I can't even sleep. I felt so bored alone so I thought of grabbing a glass of water. I went outside the room and I saw Taehyung he was going out of the apartment, of course he will, the sound of the rain already came in but it was raining heavily even I can't bear to stand under it. I couldn't stop myself from going after him actually the moment he closed the door I opened it slowly to peek at where he was going. To my surprise he didn't go downstairs he went up.

For seconds I thought of it well, should I go? Or should I not? But something inside me woke up which is regret, what if I regret it later? But what if I don't? I took a step backward away from the door reaching my hand for what was hanged. I took the umbrella and closed the door behind me.

I went where the stairs took me until I found the door that allowed the entrance to the roof top open which made me slightly sure that he was outside. He was standing right under the rain observing the road and people running away from the rain downside. It was raining heavily that every step I took made a sound. I stood next to him and raised my arm a bit so I can shelter him.

"Do you want to catch a cold?" I said and again I met the same Taehyung I saw before when it started raining on both of us.

"What are you doing here?" he asked after he took a glimpse of my face and then looked away again.

"You forgot this, Taehyung let's go back it's raining heavier now" he didn't answer me. "Taehyung" I said his name couple of times before he looked at me. His eyes, he was crying. He was hiding it under the rain.

"Tae" I said as his tears increased more and he sat on the ground still looking at me, his eyes, they were screaming for help. I felt unease and strange feelings interviewed themselves into me at this moment, he was full of sincerity. I can't help it, it weakened me.

Umbrella

"I don't want to be a bad person, I want them to leave me alone, why do they hurt me Rena why?" he pleaded. I don't know what he was talking about but he said my name so he wasn't hallucinating, but I still don't understand, what is stressing him like that? It hurts a lot. I swear I had just few more seconds and cry like him but I didn't, he needs help. He needs help Rena, help him.

Unconsciously I let out my hand and put it on his wet clothes patting him, he leaned his forehead on my shoulder "It's alright, they won't hurt you I am here" I said my only words and he kept on crying for a while. Until he stopped and breathed some air he pulled himself back and looked at me "let's go" he said as he held the umbrella from me and helped me up.

He held my hand and pulled me to his side. I know it. I know well he might be even dreaming, or just afraid of something. I can assume.

But what I am sure of is that he is fighting something on his own just like a person I know well. But today he clearly asked for it, he asked for help.

We went back downstairs and he went straight to his room. I changed my clothes and fell unconscious on the bed my body was weak so weak. I slept.

The next morning I woke again on the sound of loud noise next to my ears. "Fine Hoseok, I woke up!" I said

"People say good morning first, are you still coming?"

"Emm" I pushed him out of my way to grab my clothes, I took grey trousers and black hoodie and went straight to the bath room. I washed myself, put on my clothes and dried my hair and left it on my shoulders. I thought about what happened yesterday over and over, what did he mean by hurting him? And who are they? I drowned in my thoughts until the door knocked.