Mesmerizing

22: Feel

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Hoseok will explain Rena, so calm down.

I told myself as I walked back home, funny how the streets became more familiar now. However I am worried and afraid and who wouldn't be? Hann Rena stop complaining and focus.

My foot steps were heavier than ever, the darkness in the sky was getting heavier as well. It was all gloomy. A headache was my only company until my cell phone rang.

" "Hey Rena" said a soft young lady's voice

    "Lana, long time, How are you?" I replied

    "I need to have a small talk with you can I?"

    "Yes sure I just came home; I will be waiting for you then"

    "Great I am on the stairs""

  

 We hang up and just second later I went to open the door.

"Why did you stop visiting me Lana?" I said as I faintly smiled "Come on in"

"I didn't want to bother you" she sighed as she sat down "but I really had no one that will understand this except you"

"Of course I am always here for you Lana" I replied, what does she exactly know?

She threw her back on the couch,

"You know Rena, I love him so much, I love him to the extent of asking him to give me a chance, I love him to the extent that I risked my comfort and happiness to be with him because I trusted that he at least would give me those in return, I mean true love doesn't need things in return, but at the same time you need to share things together and I thought he would at least share the feeling of comfort with me, since I am the only one giving love. I know no one can blame him but it is really tearing me apart Rena, it is way too painful, what Yuri meant to him is understandable, He told me what happened, so I already hate her, I want to kick her face every time I hear her name. But what does it mean by him giving her a chance, what does it mean? That is the part I don't get, does that mean that he still love her? Or does it mean that he can't love me? Or that I wasn't able to make him love me as much? I know it's really explainable that he can love her more, but thinking of it. It hurts me Rena; it shreds me into small parts"

"No" I replied taking a deep breath in "It means that he is an idiot, Lana listen to me what Hoseok has been through was too much, the years he needed to be capable of enduring her leaving his life with that barbaric attitude took so long. Maybe he is just lost"

But he doesn't love her Lana. I am sure of it; we just need to wait until he realizes that.

Those were the words I couldn't tell her, I was a bit afraid of Hoseok actually, I didn't want her to have false hope.

"What should I do Rena?"

"Wait, if you love him then wait for him"

She sat upright and faintly nodded her head then left.

The following day came, I didn't go out I preferred to stay at home waiting for the 'great old days' to start. The things you make me do for you Hoseok. Taehyung never called or texted since I last saw him, he was back to avoiding me. I am just waiting to see the end of Yuri's situation. I have to get this straight with him, I want him in my life.