Mesmerizing

10: Rest

kindly read the Chapter while listening to this beautiful cover of spring day

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"B-But I was just there with you couple of hours ago" I said as I poured the soup in the bowl.

He didn't respond to my words and stood in silence instead. I left the kitchen and he followed my clumsy trying to be careful steps to the living room until he sat down and I gave him the soup.

He sat quite drinking his soup; it was so quite that I could hear our breath clearly, unintentionally I kept observing Tae by shifting all my gaze and thoughts on him like a waterfall. Is it that easy? You miss someone so you show up seconds later? Is this how everything works? Why is he ..... so I don't even know a word that would fit clearly. Calm maybe? Like a calm lake so peaceful and soothing however a drop of water would cause its rage same as Taehyung which I totally don't get. I can't actually settle on his personality but why have I let him in my life then? It is something I can't control; I would rather call it that I am being controlled. I only agree on what he says even when I argue with him about anything it's not that I really refuse.

What do I want to prove to myself? I wonder

However I realized something all of a sudden. If I go back in time to the day I got the chance to be friends with Hoseok, to the day I saw Taehyung in for the first time; I would approach the boy standing near the classroom door with his eyes captivated on the book he was holding onto reading the lines calmly with his own eyes shifting to know more, it was the same book as mine which made me tilt my head a bit in bewilderment at the situation. Wearing his school uniform with his dark brown hair and magical scent that arose as he closed the book on the sound of the bell ringing; his eyes fell in mine. The moment he caught me gazing at him he smiled and raised his hand slowly to wave 'Hi' however my burning cheeks forced me to run to the classroom.

If I could go back to this moment I would have waved my hand too, I would have said 'Hi. I am Rena', I would have endured the moment of embarrassment and waved back. I would really do it. Because all of a sudden I regret not doing it, I don't know why that came to my mind now, but I would do it. I would make friends with Kim Taehyung.

Ding

The sound of the clock behind Taehyung started ticking all of a sudden, How-? The last time it worked was months ago and I never bothered to even look at it.

"Taehyung"

"hmm"

"Thank you"

He frowned his eyebrows in confusion tilting his head slowly "For what?" he asked with his pure calm eyes

"That you came, I was actually afraid sitting alone until you came" I sighed "Don't tell Hoseok about this because he will worry even more and will refuse my presence here alone."

"I won't" silence again until he asked a question that caused me to ease a bit because I spoke and he listend.

"What are you afraid of?"

I lifted my legs off the floor to be able to hug my knees and laid my head on the couch's arm looking at him "I don't know Taehyung but when Hoseoki told me that this place is dangerous and these stuff I got worried"

"I am not buying this nonsense"

"I sound stupid right"

"Absolutely"

"Well, if that would satisfy you as an answer I just realized that I am afraid of loneliness. What if I die here alone? I am really grateful to the moment God gave me when I bumped into Jungkook and Jimin days ago, I thank God that Hoseoki is back in my life that someone will actually call me daily to ask about me eagerly wanting to see me. But what if I haven't gone out that day, I wouldn't have got my track back with Hoseok I wouldn't have felt the bit of warmth I am feeling right now, I would be still sleeping on my bed wasting my life in vain. I would be doing nothing Tae and on top of that I wouldn't have become friends with you. What if I die alone and nobody knows for a long while? What if someone hurt me badly Tae or kidnap me? I don't want to give up. I look like I already did but-." I said as Tears started to form in my eyes