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Chapter 6

Lisa's POV

I was just laying in my bed, crying, when I heard a knock on the door. I quickly wiped my face and got up. I opened the door to see Christina standing there, looking very concerned. She asked me if I was okay, and for a moment I was tempted to say no, but she doesn't need to deal with my problems. I said that I was fine, but then she asked again and said she heard me crying. I got angry, and said some things I probably shouldn't have. Then I slammed my door, and I heard Christina knock a few more times before heading back downstairs.  I heard someone else come up the stairs a few minutes later, thinking it was Christina, I didn't answer when they knocked. Then I heard Lauren's voice, she sounded upset. I opened the door. She took one look at me, and immediately hugged me. I could feel myself start to break, but I couldn't do that. I wouldn't.

I pushed her away. Then I said, "Go away Lauren. I don't feel like dealing with you!"  The look on her face made me sick, but she left, and I closed my door once again. 

I could barely hear the rest of my sisters, talking. I heard Dani and Lauren leave, and about fifteen minutes after that the rest of my sisters went upstairs to their rooms. I got a text, from Kath. "I left some supper in the fridge for you, in case you get hungry.." I sigh. I don't get it. Why are they all acting nice when just a few hours ago they were laughing at me?

Maybe I should just forget about that? I only heard it once, and it was very quiet. What if I misheard? Or maybe Dani was just joking? I know I should ask, but then I might hear something I don't want to. I don't think I could take that.

I decide to get pajamas on, even if I know I won't sleep well. I never do. After my nightly routine, I lay down and stare at old pictures on my phone. I try to sleep, but it's no use. After a long time, I take some Benadryl, to knock me out. It works, and I fall asleep around 4:00 AM.